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It's getting weird when people still asking why am i not updating my bloggie as frequent as i used to be, and why there is no more post regarding about the events i organised?

I was wondering how am i going to post up all these?
Seriously, I'd been occupied by ACTIVITIES this year.

It's one of the most frequent words i used to introduce myself when i see someone else this year,
It's one of the most frequent words i typed in my report.
It's one of the most frequent words i used to log into an email account.
It's one of the most frequent words i told my parents the reason why i am not home for dinner.
It's one of the most frequent words i encouraged myself to move on.
It's one of the most frequent words i told my friends the reason why i am not there for their birthdays,
It's one of the most frequent words i said when i pick up my office phone.

and finally, i am so going to be PREVIOUS activities chairperson, and i am so gonna be a history.

To be honest, i am not feeling sad nor happy.
I am feeling relieved and weirdly, thankful

If i were not an activities chairperson, i think i am not myself today
If i were not an activities chairperson, i think i wouldnt know one of best friends now.
If i were not an activities chairperson, i might not be know actually we can make monopoly to MONopoly.
If i were not an activities chairperson, i think ONE WORLD HOTEL might lose 100K of business
If i were not an activities chairperson, i think i will at least make sure all my 9 subjects have a D
If i were not an activities chairperson, i think i would be one of the most quiet people in the campus.

Well, all these are my imagination,
i am someone who like to imagine,
but not someone who is really capable to visualize what i'd imagined.

oh well, i will update this blog with something more interesting, i hope.
i am not good in composing, but i am better in imagining.
so wait for my upcoming post, telling you what i'd imagined throughout the year,
by telling you what i did.

:D


coming.soon

It's been a while, again.

I have no idea how this blog gonna survive if i continue doing this,
i mean ignoring this blog.

Perhaps this is still one of the ways to get myself a space to shout out wadever i dont like
I am kinda disappointed to myself, and to wadever i am doing now.
I can say, i am being lazy this while,
ever since my partner is gone to aussie.
I started to use this as my excuse and makes everyone think that i am actually pity enuf and you guys must help me up.
I started to take everything as granted. i really feel so.

I dont know how to be thankful but being mean
i dont know how to make people's life easier besides being nasty.
i know i am bad, i think i am getting proud.
that's make me today getting more and more scared and nervous to the event

Promised, i will be a better leader perhaps from tomorrow onwards.
no time to slack, no time to sick, but have time to die.

JiaYou :D

I dont want to be the last to know,
when i suppose to be the first to know.

You wouldnt know how busy u can be when things are flooding into your life
Events, studies, reports and dramas....

When things doesnt go smoothly in your life,
perhaps writing it out might be one of the ways to let you feel better
and i think that's wht this blog is still exist.

Yesh, lotsa drama in my life happen recently,
no one knows this better then me
if possible, stop asking me why and what is the drama
U guys know u cant make me to tell

Studying in first sem third yer,
is seriously no joke,
especialy when all 4 sub's assignments, reports, tests come in all together
and it happened while u are having 2 major events to handle.

i may be shud have feel grateful as when dramas come into my life, at least i have something to keep me as restless as i want,
or i shud feel sad as when dramas come into my life, i dont even have the chance to sort my feelings out but just to work like a bull

I believe no one can know me better then Jean
but i think i finally let one or two of mah frens come into my life and
we talk whatever we want and we share a lot.
Well, at least till until today.

I m not too sure how long i can survive,
but i think i have a lot of supporters and
thanks for making me stronger, seriously.
I do not feel regret at all,
to run this post, as an activities chairperson
it brings me a lot of experiences and the most important one: it brings me a lot of friends.

Thanks to everything,
to who know who you are,
good luck for everything and i think u gonna have a great success soon.

I know it's been a while, new post coming out in the mid sem break okay? so much to tell =)

Chinese New Year is approaching!

It's kinda special for this comung Chinese New Year,
it falls exactly on the valentines' day,
therefore, most of the chinese couples will be able to spend their Chinese New Year together gether,
and i m so ready to be asked: eh, JOHN ah, where's ur gf ah?
LOL


Well, besides that, most of my coursemate in university are transferring/exchanging to Australia.
most of them have to fly off there during the first two days of CNY.
This is so cool for them, yet this so uncool for me!
i couldnt even send them off in the airport,
in fact i cant even have a good farewell with them *cause my mum asked me to go back to jb asap*

Well.. HUGS to all my frens who are going to Aussie, especially

Eric (my hsemate)
WeiLeong
XinKai
RyanMoo
YiWen
Kerry
KarKien
SookYan
Jo-Lyne
Mama Soh

Wish all of you have the best of luck,
and i really feel envy from the bottom of my heart.
i want this chance more badly then anyone of you, seriously.
but in return, i've got myself another reward: The Activities Chairperson.

Well, yes, i m taking over Rachel's position in MUSA,
and i decided not to quit Monash,
after looking for lecturers, coordinators,
undergoing all kinds of procedures,
i made myself enrolled in 29 study hours per weeek this semester.

This sounds crazy to most of the students in Monash University,
but it gonna sounds more crazier to the MUSA president and the admin,
caz this is the timetable from the Activities Chairperson.
Paper work just drowned me off, and yet i havent really start coordinate everything into the correct position before the event starts.
This gonna take few days to gaotim everything,
and i m enjoying it,
okie, i m such a SLUT of working on all this,
just dont feel alright without doing work.

Happy Chinese New Year to all.
and hope to see those who going to overseas soon.
perhaps this year end i'll be seeing you. =)

It's been a while since the last update,
Not that i dont have the time to actually update it,
Not that i dont have the urge to actually update it,
Not that i feel lazy to actually update it,
but
i found another way to jot down whatever happened to me ,
not on the blog,
not on my closet diary,
not on my brain,
but on a piece of random paper.
After collected a certain amount of random paper of my random life,
i gonna put them into a box and place it into the earth.
and i m not going to take them out anymore,
and i just did it for the first batch of random paper i collected not long before.

Was having a small farewell gathering with Jo-Lyne, William, and Grace.
I was kinda quiet in the car, caz i dun like to have those kind of farewell gathering,
Although i dont know them for decades *we actually know each other for roughly 8 months*,
but it still not a good feeling especially when you know they are actually leaving soon.
I was having a meeting with the new committee,
yet i m going for the farewell gathering with the old committees right after that.

While waiting for William to fetch me from Monash University,
I received a phone call from Eunice,
she asking me whether i can send her to ChangiAirport not,
she'll leaving on monday to Turkey and work there, for at least a year, as a nurse.
It somehow a sudden decision, and she's my childhood fren in singapore.
The first thing crossed my mind was:
fuck, there isnt any chance for me to see her off, and we not going to see each other for a year, or more.

Emo-ness made me feel more reluctant to actually go for the gathering,
but i think i dont really show my emo-ness though,
in fact i think william got teased by me like nobody business *paiseh la, kak soh*

Well,
as all of you know that singing is part of my life,
i lurve singing, yet, i dun think i sing very well,
some of my friends like to ask me about singing technique.
i used to try my best to explain them what we called singing technique,
what have to sing using diaphragm,
what have to sing all nodes completely,
what have to open ur mouth wide while singing,
i somehow think it's useless now,
the most important tips for singing are:
Listen to the song, get what it meant for you, and express your feeling out.

This is what a senior singer told me,
when she saw me singing in singapore, during my last performance.
She told me,
'you touched me while u singing 'angels brought me here', what are u thinking when u r singing?'
I answered: who i treasure the most.
and by then a flash back of memory came across to my mind,
and the next thing i did was find a place and hide myself there to calm down and get prepared for the next song.

I was asked whether i want to be a singer,
Without hesitation, i would say yes,
but, as i grow older,
as the more performance i did,
i dont really 100%-ly want to be a singer,
it is kinda pathetic when you are forced to fit yourself into a fixed mode while singing a certain song, in order to touch whoever is listening to your singing.
As an attention seeker, i was once think that this is so cool and this could be a challenge of my life,
but now not anymore.

but i still love to sing,
but i feel reluctant to encourage my fren to sing,
and that's why i dun really sing in front of them anymore,
perhaps singing in your own style, without following the pitch, feeling, nodes, and techniques exactly will make the singer feel happier,
i would rather my fren to be happy, instead of can sing better.

Psychologist, is still my dream job
not that i like to help people, not that i like to be kepoh or what,
but i do think that everyone has their very own story,
which cause them to have psychology problem,
perhaps by helping them to find a way to express way to express out their feeling will make thier life better?
I wonder whether i can make it not.

A singer or a psychologist?
Haha. or an engineer?
this is nothing but choosing,
choosing the life u gonna have for the rest of your life.