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2010-11-22T00:06:00.004+08:00

It's getting weird when people still asking why am i not updating my bloggie as frequent as i used to be, and why there is no more post regarding about the events i organised?

I was wondering how am i going to post up all these?
Seriously, I'd been occupied by ACTIVITIES this year.

It's one of the most frequent words i used to introduce myself when i see someone else this year,
It's one of the most frequent words i typed in my report.
It's one of the most frequent words i used to log into an email account.
It's one of the most frequent words i told my parents the reason why i am not home for dinner.
It's one of the most frequent words i encouraged myself to move on.
It's one of the most frequent words i told my friends the reason why i am not there for their birthdays,
It's one of the most frequent words i said when i pick up my office phone.

and finally, i am so going to be PREVIOUS activities chairperson, and i am so gonna be a history.

To be honest, i am not feeling sad nor happy.
I am feeling relieved and weirdly, thankful

If i were not an activities chairperson, i think i am not myself today
If i were not an activities chairperson, i think i wouldnt know one of best friends now.
If i were not an activities chairperson, i might not be know actually we can make monopoly to MONopoly.
If i were not an activities chairperson, i think ONE WORLD HOTEL might lose 100K of business
If i were not an activities chairperson, i think i will at least make sure all my 9 subjects have a D
If i were not an activities chairperson, i think i would be one of the most quiet people in the campus.

Well, all these are my imagination,
i am someone who like to imagine,
but not someone who is really capable to visualize what i'd imagined.

oh well, i will update this blog with something more interesting, i hope.
i am not good in composing, but i am better in imagining.
so wait for my upcoming post, telling you what i'd imagined throughout the year,
by telling you what i did.

:D

coming.soon

2010-07-30T00:07:00.002+08:00

It's been a while, again.

I have no idea how this blog gonna survive if i continue doing this,
i mean ignoring this blog.

Perhaps this is still one of the ways to get myself a space to shout out wadever i dont like
I am kinda disappointed to myself, and to wadever i am doing now.
I can say, i am being lazy this while,
ever since my partner is gone to aussie.
I started to use this as my excuse and makes everyone think that i am actually pity enuf and you guys must help me up.
I started to take everything as granted. i really feel so.

I dont know how to be thankful but being mean
i dont know how to make people's life easier besides being nasty.
i know i am bad, i think i am getting proud.
that's make me today getting more and more scared and nervous to the event

Promised, i will be a better leader perhaps from tomorrow onwards.
no time to slack, no time to sick, but have time to die.

JiaYou :D

2010-05-23T15:37:00.001+08:00

I dont want to be the last to know,
when i suppose to be the first to know.

2010-04-25T04:22:00.002+08:00

You wouldnt know how busy u can be when things are flooding into your life
Events, studies, reports and dramas....

When things doesnt go smoothly in your life,
perhaps writing it out might be one of the ways to let you feel better
and i think that's wht this blog is still exist.

Yesh, lotsa drama in my life happen recently,
no one knows this better then me
if possible, stop asking me why and what is the drama
U guys know u cant make me to tell

Studying in first sem third yer,
is seriously no joke,
especialy when all 4 sub's assignments, reports, tests come in all together
and it happened while u are having 2 major events to handle.

i may be shud have feel grateful as when dramas come into my life, at least i have something to keep me as restless as i want,
or i shud feel sad as when dramas come into my life, i dont even have the chance to sort my feelings out but just to work like a bull

I believe no one can know me better then Jean
but i think i finally let one or two of mah frens come into my life and
we talk whatever we want and we share a lot.
Well, at least till until today.

I m not too sure how long i can survive,
but i think i have a lot of supporters and
thanks for making me stronger, seriously.
I do not feel regret at all,
to run this post, as an activities chairperson
it brings me a lot of experiences and the most important one: it brings me a lot of friends.

Thanks to everything,
to who know who you are,
good luck for everything and i think u gonna have a great success soon.

2010-03-27T11:33:00.001+08:00

I know it's been a while, new post coming out in the mid sem break okay? so much to tell =)

2010-02-07T19:24:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year is approaching!

It's kinda special for this comung Chinese New Year,
it falls exactly on the valentines' day,
therefore, most of the chinese couples will be able to spend their Chinese New Year together gether,
and i m so ready to be asked: eh, JOHN ah, where's ur gf ah?
LOL

Well, besides that, most of my coursemate in university are transferring/exchanging to Australia.
most of them have to fly off there during the first two days of CNY.
This is so cool for them, yet this so uncool for me!
i couldnt even send them off in the airport,
in fact i cant even have a good farewell with them *cause my mum asked me to go back to jb asap*

Well.. HUGS to all my frens who are going to Aussie, especially

Eric (my hsemate)
WeiLeong
XinKai
RyanMoo
YiWen
Kerry
KarKien
SookYan
Jo-Lyne
Mama Soh

Wish all of you have the best of luck,
and i really feel envy from the bottom of my heart.
i want this chance more badly then anyone of you, seriously.
but in return, i've got myself another reward: The Activities Chairperson.

Well, yes, i m taking over Rachel's position in MUSA,
and i decided not to quit Monash,
after looking for lecturers, coordinators,
undergoing all kinds of procedures,
i made myself enrolled in 29 study hours per weeek this semester.

This sounds crazy to most of the students in Monash University,
but it gonna sounds more crazier to the MUSA president and the admin,
caz this is the timetable from the Activities Chairperson.
Paper work just drowned me off, and yet i havent really start coordinate everything into the correct position before the event starts.
This gonna take few days to gaotim everything,
and i m enjoying it,
okie, i m such a SLUT of working on all this,
just dont feel alright without doing work.

Happy Chinese New Year to all.
and hope to see those who going to overseas soon.
perhaps this year end i'll be seeing you. =)

2010-01-17T09:57:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since the last update,
Not that i dont have the time to actually update it,
Not that i dont have the urge to actually update it,
Not that i feel lazy to actually update it,
but
i found another way to jot down whatever happened to me ,
not on the blog,
not on my closet diary,
not on my brain,
but on a piece of random paper.
After collected a certain amount of random paper of my random life,
i gonna put them into a box and place it into the earth.
and i m not going to take them out anymore,
and i just did it for the first batch of random paper i collected not long before.

Was having a small farewell gathering with Jo-Lyne, William, and Grace.
I was kinda quiet in the car, caz i dun like to have those kind of farewell gathering,
Although i dont know them for decades *we actually know each other for roughly 8 months*,
but it still not a good feeling especially when you know they are actually leaving soon.
I was having a meeting with the new committee,
yet i m going for the farewell gathering with the old committees right after that.

While waiting for William to fetch me from Monash University,
I received a phone call from Eunice,
she asking me whether i can send her to ChangiAirport not,
she'll leaving on monday to Turkey and work there, for at least a year, as a nurse.
It somehow a sudden decision, and she's my childhood fren in singapore.
The first thing crossed my mind was:
fuck, there isnt any chance for me to see her off, and we not going to see each other for a year, or more.

Emo-ness made me feel more reluctant to actually go for the gathering,
but i think i dont really show my emo-ness though,
in fact i think william got teased by me like nobody business *paiseh la, kak soh*

Well,
as all of you know that singing is part of my life,
i lurve singing, yet, i dun think i sing very well,
some of my friends like to ask me about singing technique.
i used to try my best to explain them what we called singing technique,
what have to sing using diaphragm,
what have to sing all nodes completely,
what have to open ur mouth wide while singing,
i somehow think it's useless now,
the most important tips for singing are:
Listen to the song, get what it meant for you, and express your feeling out.

This is what a senior singer told me,
when she saw me singing in singapore, during my last performance.
She told me,
'you touched me while u singing 'angels brought me here', what are u thinking when u r singing?'
I answered: who i treasure the most.
and by then a flash back of memory came across to my mind,
and the next thing i did was find a place and hide myself there to calm down and get prepared for the next song.

I was asked whether i want to be a singer,
Without hesitation, i would say yes,
but, as i grow older,
as the more performance i did,
i dont really 100%-ly want to be a singer,
it is kinda pathetic when you are forced to fit yourself into a fixed mode while singing a certain song, in order to touch whoever is listening to your singing.
As an attention seeker, i was once think that this is so cool and this could be a challenge of my life,
but now not anymore.

but i still love to sing,
but i feel reluctant to encourage my fren to sing,
and that's why i dun really sing in front of them anymore,
perhaps singing in your own style, without following the pitch, feeling, nodes, and techniques exactly will make the singer feel happier,
i would rather my fren to be happy, instead of can sing better.

Psychologist, is still my dream job
not that i like to help people, not that i like to be kepoh or what,
but i do think that everyone has their very own story,
which cause them to have psychology problem,
perhaps by helping them to find a way to express way to express out their feeling will make thier life better?
I wonder whether i can make it not.

A singer or a psychologist?
Haha. or an engineer?
this is nothing but choosing,
choosing the life u gonna have for the rest of your life.

2009-11-24T22:30:00.002+08:00

I wanted to say NO.

BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT

when they say they dont mind paying

I
..............................

..........................

..............

......
...
.

said yes to learn these two songs.

and

i lurve these 2 songs,
but i never want to perform them
I AM SO FUCKING FAT FOR THEM..
LOL

die die die die die die die die die die
i dont know how to die.
in front of 500 ppl singing thes 2 songs?
aiks.
i just cant resist the pay ~~sometimes~~

2009-11-19T21:14:00.002+08:00

歌曲是一种微妙的咚咚
它是一个能让感情被抒发的黑洞
也是个把能量发出去的泉源
今天唱了很多新歌
歌词让我有了很多很多的感触
不是在感情上，而是在人生哲学上。
是一种寄托吧。
人总是把所有的感触寄托在不同的东西身上。
有些喜欢把它写出来，
有些喜欢把它收在心里，
也有很多人喜欢把感触转化成力量，
把它幻化成汗水，
把它化成食量，
而我儿时潜意识的把它化成唱歌的动力。
与其说歌曲是让我抒发情感的地方，
不如说它是我能量的泉源，
不停的唱同一首歌，
而每次在找寻适当的唱法时，
都会有不同的感触。
是心灵上的一种灌注吧
也是一种情感的回流。

今天让我有所感触歌叫葡萄成熟时
陈奕讯唱：
‘日后尽量别让今天的泪白流
留低击伤你的石头
从错误里吸收’

Robbery

2009-11-18T20:56:00.004+08:00

It happened this morning
It was fast.
I wonder my sub committee next time will be that efficient?
LOL

And the story goes like this:
I went down from the car and headed into my house.
Mum were outside and getting down from the car.
What i heard next was: AUNTIE.
and what i saw at that moment was: A SUPER LONG PARANG on my mum's shoulder. o.O
My mum fast fast give him the bag she carried and both of the indian robbers ran away.

It happened in 30 seconds?
and i had time to bargain with them to see whether he wants to give back my mum's id and stuff.

This is the second time my mum got rob in 5 years time.
I myself thinks that my mum ~~and me~~ are super alert and smart.
The first time was happened in front of a bank,
while she was heading to her car from the bank.
A motor bike was heading to her from a different direction,
and me was in the car,
I asked her to pour everything in the bag to the floor and thus she managed to save whatever are important.
and the snatch theif was not fortunate, he got injured because i used umbrella to attack him and he was caught.

The second time was happened this morning,
right in front of my place.
FUCK!!!
i think the two indians were tailing us from one of the main roads,
but anyway,
it's fucking fortunate for my mum caz she is absolutely alright,
loss of few hundreds worth handphones aint something compared relatively to her life.
Anyway, she was kinda calm *just like me*
and still got the mood to make fun of the thief -.-
and we were discussing why she never pretend to have heart attack or whatever it is and pretend to faint on the floor. LOL..
this is how creative of me and my mum..

Stop saying why my father cant stop all these to happened since he is a police.
Err..
probably my dad isnt a superman,
and wad can he do when he is not there..
stop asking stupid questions -.-

People, be superly careful while u r walking
and be extra careful before u go into ur place.
Hee..

zZZzzZZ

2009-11-17T22:07:00.003+08:00

Whoever know me well knows that i like to sleep, but i just dont sleep when i have something better to do, and i couldnt sleep much when i have something in my mind. Perhaps 3 to 4 hours are more then enough to support me for the next 20 hours.

I've been telling myself to sleep after the exam caz i seriously think that i m so lack of sleep throughout this semester..
Therefore, i came out this schedule:

Exam ends at thursday:
Friday till monday : stay at home and SLEEP.
tuesday: go out with frens
Wednesaday onwards till the end of november : SLEEP

I followed the plan perfectly until my mum starts assigning me task:
1. John ah, can u wash ur school bag? they seems dirty.
2. John ah, can u go to the market with me?
3. John ah, can u go to the back with me?
4. John ah, the whoever uncle long time never see u leh...
5. John ah..
6. John ah...
7. John ah......
8. John ah......
...........
.....
..
.

Never failed to mention my name, perhaps my mum never see me for a long time.
I wonder how she gonna react if i really need to leave the country to work or whatever it is.

I planned to do this few things in the holiday:
1. Reformat my lappie (it might take me forever to do it, caz i m lazy)
2. Paint a few pairs of shoes for new year!!!
3. Re-familiarise the Photoshop thingy, caz i think it gonna be useful next year.
4. Read a few english books, caz my english sucks.
5. Learn a few songs?
5. SLEEP.

I think i can only accomplish the last mission. lol

well, times up, and i m off to sleep again.
goodnight world.
lol..
so sleepy..
hahahaha

2009-11-07T21:36:00.003+08:00

Humans are changeable..

Right after the exam timetable is out:
Everyone will want the timetable ends as soon as possible, and decided to get great grades for the coming exam.
start targeting their grades,
scheduling timeslot for revisions

During the mid of preparation:
Everyone starts planning for vacation after exam,
everyone got so excited bout the plan,
and somehow forgot the scheduled revision timeslot.
and somehow forgot they must sit for exam before the whatever plan they made.

Right before the exam:
Everyone wants extra time just to study,
so that they can do better in the coming paper,
but usually things dont turned out well

Days in between papers:
Everyone wants the time pass slower so that they dont need to take the paper so soon
everyone wish the exam periods are longer, so that they got extra days in between papers.
Everyone got depressed for the first few paper, and want to do better in the later one, or perhaps next semester.

Right before last paper:
everyone is again excited bout the plan and
they somehow forgot whatever they studied.

RIght after last paper:
everyone go out and have fun,
or go back to sleep kao kao..
and start complaining the exam period is way too long

Right after the results released:
everyone claimed that they will do better if given extra days to study.
everyone will plan to do better in next semester.

But the cycle wont change until the last semester.
This is wad we called exam syndrome,
and how easy humans can be consoled by themselves.

No doubt, i m one of them. LOL

STRESS AH~~ SIEN AH

2009-11-02T22:05:00.009+08:00

how hard is material and energy balance? err... u see lo:

2009-11-02T20:38:00.002+08:00

It's not fun to play with balancing when u just couldnt balance them well..
Not just about material and energies.
but so do the hormone, stressness control, emotion, diet, life and the list goes on.

I found out people do stress when things flooding in like there is no tomorrow.
Things are getting awful if there is too much stress on it.
we do know the theory well inside out,
but no one can apply it well on themselves.
at least i m couldnt do it perfectly well..

No doubt, the course structure is gettng harder in each semester,
but i think i m mentally prepared for it,
at least i think i should do so. before the exam strikes.
or perhaps i had experience on multitasking,
so examination is not really something for me,
and yet it seems more relaxing,
compared relatively to
having 2 events on hands, few assignments, and other problems..

Comparing yourself with other is something that can hardly find a balance point.
compare and think about how people do think about urself can bring nothing good..
It's because everything will go off when things gone beyond the balancing point.
Afterall, the possibility of being 'balanced' is very small,
despite having a lot of accurate and reliable information,
we can never find the balance point.

But dont forget we were living in a well balanced world,
and human imbalance the balance on the world.
by turning impossible to possible,
with the aid of technology.
So, dont need to think so much before u do something,
So long as u feel happy...
But anyway, feeling happy is not by thinking people think how badly u are
being happy is not by comparing ourselves to the other people
being happy is not by blaming people pissing you
being happy is not about being stress only during the examination period.
being happy is not just trying to avoid from awkwardness..

i dont know what am i writing. ignore this

2009-10-31T16:10:00.005+08:00

Orgh i cant go to the Halloween Party at Jean's place..
but the comment somehow made me feel so proud of myself to have u being my LAOMEI la..

stardy stardy.. first paper is on monday..

Wish me luck!!

i m now looking forward to the 4 months holidays..
first, where are we going to have our feast after the paper??
so many plans and there are still a lot to come..
life is getting so exciting..
and i can finally get myself back to default mode, especially my 'non stop growing fats'
hahahaahaha..

Anyway.. steal this from MsRachelTan's bloggie.. and HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
thx for the surprise anyway,
i've been laughing non stop for like 30 mins at least.. especially Shaz's pic

GOOD LUCK GUYS FOR UR UPCOMING PAPER(s)!!!!!!

2009-10-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

I M DUMB ASS :(

2009-10-27T17:02:00.003+08:00

The end of the OCTOBER

October used to be the most important month to me
especially the last weekend.
It's now no longer as important as before..

This October seems hectic and stressful
if u so happened to be a Monash student,
i believe u will feel exactly how i feel..
Everyone seems so stressful to the exam but yet so excited to the outing after the exams.
Humans are all like this.

During the last weekend of October,
went to the MUSA appreciation dinner =)
I had 3 certs from MUSA as the sub-com for the activities division,
while Rachel was complaining that she got only one...
Never mind la rach, i will join ur group next year.

*lazy to upload pictures*

Everyone around me are counting down to their first paper,
and my first paper is on the Monday, 1.30pm,
which is like 140 hours later? i m not sure.
anyway.. wish everyone do well in their exam bah...
jia you~ off to study

Tik Tok. Nerdy mode ON

十月，曾经对我来说是那么的重要，
尤其是最后的那的周末，
最近被繁重的功课，恼人的考试烦扰着我，真得有点累，
可以快点考完吗？？

人是矛盾的，这是不争的事实，
很想考试能赶快结束，但是又不想这么早考，
天啊~~

不说了，回去只有读书的世界。。
值得安慰的是，这种生活快要结束，
在给它两个星期吧。。。

2009-10-21T18:05:00.005+08:00

It's been a while i buy myself a new bag.
It's hard for me to find a bag that i like a lot,
and it's even harder for me to find a bag in my favourite colour..
I was passing Playez (@pyramid) few weeks before with Rach,
The first thing i saw was this bag displayed at the displays window.
I was so ~~fucking~~ attracted by it's striking appearance..
But i din buy it on the spot..

Few weeks after that, when i pass by there again,
*THE YELLOW STRIKING BAG went missing.. FARK*..
and it's replaced by some ORDINARY piggy bag...
i was so disappointed
until rach asked me to go and take a look after we had lunch..
and tht's how LOW LOW is bought
*yea, LOW LOW is its name*.. lol

Well, was busy studying for the final exam that will be coming real soon..
All of the slides and notes need a lot of understanding,
that's what made me moving so slow while revising, which doesnt happened at all in year one..
or probably i m OLD?.. orgh, i hate to be an old fart
but indeed i m turning one.
Basic maths calculation took me about few mins to think about it.
in the midst of studying, somebody told me the report can be collected.

I was somehow feeling reluctant as i know i wont do well in the report
it dued at the same day with Talent Night.. if i m not mistaken,
caz i remember i was rushing mah report on the night before,
or it might be exteneded but i wasnt aware.. =(

But anyway, i got a HD for it, though it wasnt the highest among the classmates,
but i do feel very happy for it and somehow feeling proud of myself

This week is definitely a humid week in Sunway,
it's been a while Sunway is raining 3 or 4 days continuously,
I like the cooling weather,
i still remmeber my exhsemate likes rain a lot.. hahaha

I used to have this habit, thinking a lot during while looking the rain drops from the sky through the window.
Not the emo kind of thinking anyway,
but undeniable, raining calms my mind,
and i can think better.

Tht's all for today ba... O U T

2009-10-18T10:28:00.015+08:00

While u r studying too hard,
Somehow a chillax dinner and a movie do destress u ~~a lot~~=)

The plan starts like this:

On friday night....

Rachel : Tomorrow meeting cancelled. yippie =)
Me: Then u got nothing to do lor?
Rachel : Yea lor hor, must be damn boring..
Me: Then let's find soemthing to do.. Barbecue?
Rachel: Okay, can make cheese cake too..
Me , Rachel : ........................ ( skipped 1000000 words)
Me: Okay la, tomorrow i fetch u to shop for FOOD la...
Rachel: ookie =)

And barbecue night goes like this:

Chicken Wings - the MUST in every Barbecue =)

Sotong, Hotdog.. and Lime (smuggled out from Carrefour) muahahaha

Nice sambal sotong.. YUMMmm.. and it's damn spicy=)

The night is still young and decided to watch a movie :
Yea, the cartoon..
called

Cloudy with a Chance of Meat Balls

A night in Sunway Pyramid with not much people is always the nicest place to hang out and u might get high easily.. with all the random things we do...
Being so decent is just not ourselves.. hahaha
spot RACHEL TAN!!

And this is somehow a random imitation~

Next week must Re-Enrol before i forget =) and these are the subjects ima taking...

Before i can step into thrid year,
pass the 4 papers coming soon is a MUST.. Haha.. let's go back to study bah =)

Happy Studying

*wondering how's Jean interview goes*

2009-10-14T19:53:00.007+08:00

'Study all the while from morning to late night'
supposed to be my schedule until the end of the examination period...

BUT, life wont follow what u planned, no matter how perfect you plan your life,

1. Attend the MUSA appreciation dinner on next friday ( )
2. Attend MSC meetings ( )
3. Attend the Orientation meeting with the admins tomorrow. (-/)
4. Attend some extra classes next week ( -/)
5. FInish 2162 Assignment (last one) due on this friday ( -/)
6. Finish 2163 Quiz on friday 8am. ( -/)

FML.... Well the last two wasn't that last minute though..

But life is not just about working and studying,well, at least not my life..
Went to CHILIS with these two fellas:

Owe them 1fine meal out of some reason behind, shhh.. dont tell the rest muahaha..
it's our secret...

MUSA appreciation dinner is coming real soon, gonna get mah certificate for these 2 events :

After this year's MUSA appreciation dinner, i m gonna take over the activities pose around december time.
I myself feel the burden is getting heavier, i woner how Ken feels..
p.s to KEN: WE GONNA MAKE IT AND MAKE EACH OTHER PROUD!!

Heartbeats got faster and faster while i studying
as the more i study, the more i feel that i dont study enough
Seeking for people to help, and i hope someone could help me
Group discussion that dont end up group chatting is seriously in need
haiz...
Nerdy mode ~~supposedly~~ on
10++ days to exam and i only cover 30% of the syllabus...
buck up.. AZA AZA fighing..

2009-10-11T14:17:00.008+08:00

By the day before Jo-Lyne turned 20,
Me Grace (Lin Lin) and never forget the sick one, William (aka Liam-mie, or Liam Liam) were chattin on Facebook.. after Vincent post this up to Will's wall on my behalf -.-
I know it's sounds so wrong, but it's damn fun

This is funny -.-
and Si Batuk never turn out,
and this is the second time he ffk-ed me..
pan mee and marche..
I WILL REMEMBER IT muahahahahahahaha

2009-10-06T00:20:00.004+08:00

To do list :
1. Touch up 2092 assingments
2. Do my 2162 assingment
3. Do 2161 report introduction
4. Study for exams (exams on the 2nd, 5th, 10th and 12th)
5. Meets people for the next year event.
6. Plan for a trip for myself
7. Plan for next year event.
8. Farewell dinner(S)
9. Birthday parties.

These are going to happened in 6 weeks time people....

Life is hectic and i likey my hectic life.
The more busy i am, the greater satifactory i feel.
I know i m kinda sick, crazy for some of you...
but i m totally an attention seeker, and
aries are totally RESTLESS... and i m one of the typical one.

Elva's album is releasing real soon,
As usual, the biggest hits goes to a 'POP DANCING DIVA' kinda song... and this time it's called
閃閃惹人愛, SHINY LOVE -.-
This song definitely putting in a lot of Western and Korean style in it,
Some of you might get annoyed while listening to it for the first time,
and it does sounds like 'womaniser' for the first line...
but after all...
i still like it, and getting addicted to it.. hope u all like it too =)

Her live performance is getting more and more stable and i heart her dance..
she's ELVA la.. going to buy her album soon =)

2009-09-30T17:12:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time i never visit this blog, belongs to this fren of mine,
because she seldom update, exactly like me
but i found out that she actually did visit my bloggie sometimes,

i clicked on her page,
and she posted something on her beloved sister and things like that,
unfortunately, her sis passed away not long before, due to heart failure after giving birth to her son.
and all this due to the careless-ness of doctors she consulted.
No doubt, no one wants it to happened, but it happened all the time in M'sia
this is rather common yet not much doctor actually concern on this, especially the younger generation one.
They might lack of experience, lack of commitment on their job,
but none of these should be a valid reason for the death of her.

This is for this fren of mine:
Hey there:
I know your mood now is definitely damn down, just like the bottom of the cliff of no where,
and i know this incident must have give u a great impact for the entire of your life,
however,
what had passed is over, and we must concentrate on our lives in the future.
Your sister had gone physically, but i believe mentally, her spirit is still here,
just like how she actually educate u : 'Please is a magic word...'
how she encourage u to learn swimming by buying u a swimsuit.
Remember all these, as part of ur memory, and move on to your future.

I still remember vividly how i passed through my weakest period of my life:
it happened not long before,
2 of my besties past away back to back in a week,
my mum got into hospital for nothing,
and i cant even go back to them just because i have to settle a lot of stuff at Monash by myself,
At the same time, i need to carry my smile with me,
i can only share my emotion to some frens thru msn, not even my housemate,
caz i worry i might scare them -.-
and i dreamt of them one of the night,
they told me to move on and let them become part of my life, part of the memory and spread the love to others.

and one of my singing teachers,
she taught me a lot of stuff,
since i was very young, and
she is not much older then me,
she got pregnant and her boyfren dumped her, she gave birth at the age of 22,
i thought the birth of the baby will accompany her till she get old,
but she passed away at her age of 22, when i was 17
her baby named after my name, called 绍章 as well,
she met an accident and passed away due to delay of treatment,
she changed my life, and she is as important as my mother,
i felt so lost for half a year,
aimless, lifeless, but nothing can make her re-alive
but the only thing i can is - spread the love to her child, and her child is 5 years old now

I believe ur sis had the same wish too,
before she passed away, she must be very worry about both of her kids,
this is how a mother think,
takkaire of your mother, takkaire of ur niece and nephew,
i know it's tough for you,
but this is the critical moment of your life
i still rememeber my fren said: This obstacle is meant to prepare you well for a bigger challenge,

Fren,
i treat u as my fren, a true fren,
though we dun have much interaction,
but i never give up the friendship we built,
i felt extremely sorry to this incident
and deepest condolences to u and ur family,
takkaire of yourself,
release your emotion out if possible =)
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...

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2009-09-25T10:24:00.036+08:00

It's been a while i actually update my life in Monash...

I am sure this semester is the most busy and most fruitful so far.
however, i seriously think that next year mah life gonna be more hectic..

Gonna introduce some of the committees to you~
1. Definitely my boss - Miss Tan Rachel

she - is damn random (she claimed that she is unpredicatable)
- is kinda perfectionist
- is fun (not when she's working though)
- has high expectation to the committees (hopefully we dun really disappointed her)
- very creative - she came out with idea for the TARO BALL fight that might be one of the
application in Facebook.
- has deep voice... hahaaha
- and is lucky caz she got me as treasurer... waakakakakaakakakakaa
- status : graduating, not available... hahahahaa
- motto : i want ______, i want ______, and i want _______
: i trust u ah....

2. Secretary - Miss Jo-Lyne

she - is damn stubborn (she insisted not to sign up for a gmail, not to do something on her
eyebrow before the miss monash interview, not to yumcha with us, not to this not to that la..)
- is damn particular on her name, so dont spell wrongly.
- is kinda independent when she is working, no need assistant one lor..
- is very efficient on spamming my email... damn it..
- status : transferring to ANU, and still available..
- motto : ok no problem

3. The one was quiet - Grace Teng

She - was quiet but not now... (i think she was pretending to be quiet la)
- got no parking luck (wherever she sits beside me, i couldnt find a parking lor)
- cant control her shaky hands when she is hungry, and she is always hungry -.-
- is from jaybee too...
- status : Lost the business rep position and still available (so faster go comfort her and u might stand a chance)
- motto: i lazy to ____________ la...

4. Top Fans - YewChong Soh William

He - used to be my top fans in the Facebook application ( i dont think he is still one now ORGH)
- is a poser.. (a real poser)
- is our mother
- is a guy dont know how to use photoshop but still tried his best
- doesnt know how to speak the WALKIE language.. (*remember he replied: COME INTO WHERE?) ahahahaha
- status : Transferring to Clayton campus soon, and i think still available bah...
- motto : GO AWAY~~

5. tHe fuNKy one - Michie Wong

She - can easily go HIGH and so random....

- is a vocalist whoa
- went to a crazy sponsorship collecting trip with me
- likes restaurant city
- is not a bowler definitely...
- status : Trying to get gid from Malaysia campus, and not sure whether available not hhahaha
- motto : _____ must be crazy wei~

6. Partner of year 2010 - Ah Piong, KEnloong

He - is an emo guy (orgh)
- looks younger than his real age
- claimed that he is not a clubber....
- wants a meal in tenji for his birthday ( everyone start SAVING)
- status : won the title of Activities chairperson, still available
- motto : How ah?

7. The panmee fans - Chih Kong Andrew Loh

He - is a top fans for pan mee, almost all the pan mee
- cant eat spicy food
- can be panic (orgh still remember on the talent night...)
- scored 25/25 for his test!! woot!!
- status : Exchanging to Berwick, still available
- motto : Can you understanding what i saying or not?

8. The drama queen - Michie Ho

She - is damn dramatic, (not only on her make up for the ball)
- is funny and loud and SKINNY
- is forgetful i assumed.
- likes to dance... a lot
-status : Exchanging to Berwick i think, not available anymore (orgh...)
- motto: OMG
: ___________,mannnn

These are those committee i am closer with...
For the rest, i tired d la..

okie, continue about the 2 major activities...
1. Orientation bash Sem2, 09

Still going to the same place this time, the PORT DICKSON..
(i know it's on JULY, which is like 2 months before this)

This time wasnt much problem,
excluding the F&B,
the caterer met an accident and din manage to send the food...
running to all the KK marts and 7-11 is the only solution..
Here are some pics for the bash~

everyone is hyper~

banana boat!!!

the most concern - FOOD

Committees - i m not there!!!

GROUP PHOTO~~

more photos are available at facebook =)

Next events: The MONASH TALENT NIGHT
This is kinda big scale compared to the orientation bash,
and i believe everyone of us actually put in A LOT OF EFFORT in it =)

The preparation:

din see me for the preparation? haha.. caz i m here:

the spidey man... wahaha rach said i m the yellow-est one..

and the event night:

THX FACEBOOK FOR ALL THE PIC!! hahahahahaa
Monash Ball and
PARIES are to be up soon =)

2009-08-25T05:04:00.002+08:00

I missed all my fella frens...
especiall those 3 knows me well.. somehow they do... haha
Lotsa stuff need to be done these few days..
due dates are given like nobody business.

Always give people this kind of impression
John wouldnt have any problem la
i really hope i do...
i try my best and i hope the best outcomes..
but sometimes it just doesnt reflect on my work

But i've chosen this,
perhaps continuing doing my best is the best way that benefits all
i promised, i gonna pampered myself with a good sleep after this friday,
yea, a good sleep only,
caz there are another mountain of stuff are still waiting for me
'Busy makes me feel greater satisfaction'
so far it still works, and i hope it works forever. haha

Dilemma comes in when a lot of people says they have a lot of things to do,
as if i dont have,
i really seems that free?
until none of you can see i m actually very busy?
it might be a good news for me though,
perhaps i can take greater work load?
Oops.. which is not a good sign.. haah
but... aries are typical attention seeker..
aiks..
i dont know what i supposed to do sometimes,
i really wish to see my dearest 3 frens,
i know they cant help me at alll...
but they can always ease my mind and gimme inspirations...
This is what they called fate gua~
none of any of the world but 3 of them can gimme this kind of feeling...(yet)

am i thinking too much?
perhaps...

2009-08-19T06:44:00.002+08:00

M so sorry for the late update.
Last semester just ended with a mess.
Sucky examination timetable..
Moving to a new place, right after my last paper.
Results wasnt bad though. hahhaahaa

Started my new sem with Orientation.
Orientation bash is better then last semester,
probably the committe team is slightly bigger
and we have enough experience of it.

Next is the Monash Talent Night
which gonna be on the next friday.
do drop by the ticket booth to grab a ticket or two, hahaha
it gonna be fun =)

Assignment wave attacks as usual.
This semester is gonna be more crazier then any before.
Lotsa stuff come in 3 weeks.
The level of business gonna hit the peak of my entire life so far
so many people to meet,
so many things to remember,
so many assignment to hand in,
so many tests,
so stress up, but i somehow enjoy it.
i know it sounds a bit wrong,
but they said i m the one who likes to find things to do.
err.. i m not sure whether i m really in that kind of category.

Met a lot of frens recently,
share a lot of stuff,
watched 2 movies,
made me feel more emo, none of the movie has an happy ending.
i think after this damn so stressful week 5,
i gonna be more energetic (caz finally can sleep better i think)

More updates will be up, but it gonna be until the end of August.
Photos will be up too. Promised=)

2009-06-09T00:39:00.004+08:00

过了两年，我得到了那位曾经离我远去的朋友的谅解，
两年的误会，终于被解开，
我曾经去解释，我曾经用尽所有的办法去解释，
误会仍然用了两年来解开。
当时在我身旁的朋友每个都很肯帮忙，
终于，事情圆满落幕。

两年后的今天，
这位朋友说对我不信任，
还能举出种种例子，
不好意思，他不是对我说，他对我的朋友说，
我真得不知所措，
我不知道要去解释好，还是要保持沉默？
这次和上次不同，这次朋友们置之不理，总希望自己能置身事外，慢慢的，我也习惯了一个人去承担。
防卫心已经很强的我，
时还需要加强我得防卫系统
还是要更努力的学会带眼识人？
朋友，我很珍惜，
每一个人都会有错，
我从不会去埋怨朋友对我有不满，误会，
可是我不能接受的是，
为什么不能把事情摊出来说，
让事情有转弯的余地，
或许能把不必要的误会解开，
没有人能更清楚我自己的事，
也没有人能更清楚你的事情，
有时选择不把事情的全部说完，并不代表我说谎，如果我是个说谎高手，
我又何曾会笨到有这么多把柄落在你手里？
天啊，你用了你的逻辑去衡量你所听到的，你所认为的，
但却不曾用你对朋友的认知去衡量他的为人而为他挂上你所认为的称号。

我想要有个解释的机会，
可是这个机会你是否会给，我很怀疑，
因为你原来不是我说认识的那位朋友，毕竟我对人的信任点还挺低的
我已经不懂要怎么做，
我不想我被误解，
我不想坐视不理，
我不是那类型的人
我不是那种‘不管我的事’的人

天啊
就除了中学的朋友以外，没有人愿意以真心待你吗？

2009-06-02T21:27:00.002+08:00

there is no connection is JayBee home -.-
goodness, no connection how to live?? hahahahaha
Cheh.. well
the first thing i gotta do at JAYBEE is nothing but SLIMMING DOWN.. aiks
being warned look too fat d ( i warned myself)

Nyway, there are still about 3000 slides to see and endless tutorial questions need to be done.. aiks
AIYO.. haha
Nyway, i hate BIO NANO, DrCh** and Dr.W*
hahaha

The more i stay with my mum, the more i confirm that she is my biological mum (of caz she is)
caz, she is jst so alike as me, the behaviour way - making things into joke around the world.
the story was like this

Tuesday night, pasar malam night,
when my mum and me went out from the pasar malam headingto our car,
sudd there is a MAXIS promoter shouting: AUNTY WANT TO SEE SEE MAH????
My mum straight away says: WALAO, U GOT ANYTHING TO SEE MEH?
the guy was super embarrassed by my mum,
caz the way my mum talk was like saying that he is a FLASHER -.-
damn paiseh and damn funny man.. haha

well, think will be back to Sunway probably by the end of next week,
think by than i will be the PRO OF BIO NANO.. cheh.. wahaha.. HOPEFULLY la

2009-05-28T13:09:00.002+08:00

Nothing much to update though, i've open an twitter account, user name as jeaseanjore.
Pls follow me there, as i think i will update there more frequent than here.. hahaha

Nyway, today is the BAK ZHANG day,
There is a story behind this though,

Once upon a time (ahahah), at China there, there is a guy called QU YUAN,
he is kinda patriotic though,
a lot of ppl do respect him,
He commited suicide by jumping into the NI LUO JIANG (ni luo river) at the fifth day of the fifth month,
because he was kinda upset by the situation of China that time,
So, those people scare the fish might go and eat his body in the river,
in order to prevent this to happen
they then put glutinous rice in leaves, cook it, and throw into the river,
so that the fish will eat the glutinous rice rather than eating QU YUAN's body.

There are lotsa version about this story,
but i think this is the most common one among the chinese society,
so i think this is the correct one wahaha

Nyway, it's BAK ZHANG day today,
yet me still preparing test for tomolo morning,
hopefully can get thigns done by tonight,
as i got terribly flu... aiks
WANTED TO GO BACK badly -.-

2009-05-24T14:24:00.002+08:00

好久没有回家了
今天妈妈打电话来，
意思意思的暗示着我说，这星期四端午节，不要回来过节吗？
突然间，思念用在心头，
还真想回去住住，
毕竟，回去有人照顾生活起居，还真的会很很很很很方便，
哈哈哈哈
可是要回去的路程真的很累，
要带很多东西会，更累，
所以，
有了回家这个目标，
相比在这里读书的速度会快很多，
以便能够少带一些东西回去。。
天啊，怎么这么多东东要读？

2009-05-21T22:34:00.002+08:00

Gary's latest ALBUM, SUPERMARKET will be out at the beginning of JUNE.
曹格最新专辑 - 超级4th场，即将上市，
要买正版哦
这是最新主打，寂寞先生
体现的是曹格的高超唱功，
想必这首歌将会是未来各大唱歌比赛的热门，可是，要唱的好，还得练一练。
在这与大家分享，
值得听的好歌。

寂寞先生 - 曹格

2009-05-21T16:08:00.002+08:00

Yish, based on the performance show, obviously, KRIS had done better than ADAM,
perhaps he indeed improved a lot, and
he was damn so freaking lucky to have the final song which actually suits him MUCH BETTER.
Bias...
aiks...

Well, the best song to listen of the night still by Carrie.. -.-
mayb the experience of performing live, she is getting better then before definately...

Such a waste for ADAM -.- -.- -.- -.-

Fuck~~
KRIS ALLEN WON IT -.-

2009-05-18T01:04:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since last time i meet Relyne,
probably the graduation show of her on march.
But it seems like i din meet Jeanette longer,
i think Sean will be the longest. -.-

Anyway, went out with Relyne to completely distress myself,
ya, both of us can talk about ANYTHING,
(same goes with Jeanette and Sean though)
We did some crazy stuff as usual like screaming in the car -.-
and commenting on Malaysia Dreamgirls finalists (oops)
and wondering how are we going to communicate with Jean's boyfriend -.-
haha..

Those things happened and troubled me this few days were swapped away with the laughter we have,
I found something out, was that, actually people do change,
since i tried my best and try to rescue,
if things still fucked up,
i also cannot do anything besides moving on.
I making apologize again to whoever involved in the incident,
hope things will get better as the time goes by.
But still, i m still wondering what did i do and made things fucked up, and end up apologizing here.
I am clueless bout this either, but since there is not only one vicitm in this incident,
as a guy, i think i should do this one last time.

Well, bout the outing,
not much picture was took,
in fact more on playing web cam at home -.-
and commenting bout ppls' emoticon,
haha

Sorry for scaring Eric Yap though,
with the character of me and Relyne,
we just cannot help it to laugh or be crazy while seeing each other.
Haha

First time after form 5, laugh until my jaw start aching now -.-
aiks.. and abs too....

Anyway, thx to Relyne for accompanying me for a whole day just to cheer me up,
and Jean, the funny writing on the wall..
u guys never failed to cheer me up
Appreciate it,
and i missed u all badly.. Orgh ...

2009-05-11T16:49:00.005+08:00

也不知道是好气还是好笑
连风都不知道要到哪儿找浪的时候，
竟让掀起了大浪

我很不喜欢被忽视，被当透明的感觉
曾经是有那么的要好，
竟然被一两句话就把我们地对彼此的信任彻底敲碎，
也更让我想两年前发生的事情。

人是有阴影的，
我不可能在肇事者面前嬉笑玩乐，
我会很累，
我要兼顾很多东西的同时，
还要照顾大家的感受，
要做到面面俱到，
我承认，
这对我真的很难。
尤其是在种种的问题来袭时，
我更感到心寒，
当我需要好朋友倾诉时，
看见的是一张含金的嘴，
既然这样，那也就算了吧

肇事者们，
我们可以是那么的要好，
今天沦落到这种地步，
除了要怪我们之间的信念不是想象中的那么坚定，
更应该怪我本身这么容易信任人。
算了，
让一切归零，
转头虽然要面对很多新事物，
可是好过看见前方的人对自己怀疑，
我宁愿你们说我逃避，
我也不要亲自在你们面前拿那脸来扔。

我也学到了一点，
不要对别人太好，
这只会换来一身不需要练习就会的终极隐身术
度领~~~

2009-04-15T22:16:00.003+08:00

I M SICK..
so long nvr see doctor for selsema-.-
first time in KL..
was conned in by papa... haha
nyway.. i m sick.. and have to get my reports done =((

2009-04-14T10:49:00.002+08:00

很想写着很久了。。
记得有一天，从广播听到这则心理测验，
问题问着：当你去旅行时，最担心什么没被带齐？
我选了手表
有人选了手机
还有人选了毛巾

手表 - 您的压力来源是自己
手机 - 您的压力来源是朋友
毛巾 - 您的压力来源是家人

我曾经以为我的压力、来源是家人与朋友，
但是仔细的回想，
压力的的确确来自自己，
家人从来都没有要求我的功课要很好，
说实在的，他们早应在我小六时已经彻底地对我的成绩绝望了吧。
我也常常会因朋友给予的评语而开始感到压力，
好像当我再看港剧时，有位朋友就会说：去读书啦
明明就是放假的这段时间，又硬着头皮拿起看不懂的数学课本。。。。最后还是睡着了
也好像那位朋友在与我争执着音域宽度对歌唱是否带来好处那样，
明明自己的认知不是如此，却还真的不知要怎么让他了解，又因此感觉到了压力。
或许应该让他去看看张靓颖，周笔畅，李宇春的那届超女，那么他或许能够了解。。。
本来很有兴致和他讨论，
到很像吵架
到真的吵了起来
到不想说了
只有短短的两天
哈哈

或许是我的主观有主宰了我的思维？
先入为主的观念又回来了吗？
我已经尝试变得客观去面对问题，
难道一切的尝试其实只在安抚自己？
不知道。。
都说了，我总喜欢把压力不限量的加在身上。

知道想起已故老师说的那句话：
绍章，你知道吗，
你胜在比别人坚持，比别人努力，
只要是你想要的，你就会去，
这是你，
不需要改变自己迎合别人
站不稳的脚，才会被别人拖走，
当找到了自己的定位，就要以那儿位起跑点，往上冲。。。
但你的弱点是，
耳根轻。。。
过后就施压在自己身上，
什么都不告诉别人，自己默默的扛
然后崩溃。。。。

老师，我正努力地改正着，
你在天国还好吧？
双手合十，祈祷你在天国能安详

考试就快来了，
我会努力读书，
七月要来了
我会努力省钱
加油
要与大家分享这首歌：
lady gaga pokerface - acoustic version

2009-03-21T16:30:00.023+08:00

This is the weekend of the third week of the third semester, this sounds fun yea.. haha
March,me always very busy in March, out of no reasons,
well, me not yet got very busy in the academic side, but there are lotsa outing for this month though,

first the orientation bash,
it was a success (at least i said so) and i have fun for it..
There are lotsa positive feedback for the batch,
and so do some negative feedbacks too..
we will try our best to plan better and wish to improve for the next one..

Well, went to ShahAlam to watch performance by Shazwan during a friday night,
i couldnt remember the exact date though, but i gonna remember it for a long time,
caz it's a trip that is wasting time,
It's not the performeance problem, but there are some miscommunication for it and i spend at least 3 and a half hour for waiting -.-ll

The FreeLoaders

Shazwan - The Lead Singer

The performance was good,
but if there is a portable platform as stage will be better,
and i m still wondering why mamak goes with fullband performance nowadays. -.-

On the saturday, the second week saturday if i din mistaken,
Jervis, Ryan, Eric Yap and me went to Bintang Street to get something we want~
i bought a router,
Zhi Wei bought his backpack,
and Eric and Ryan got thier GODIVA cake the dark chocolate cake with a truffle on top

and the white chocolate cake
Specially thanks to Jervis who was the one paying for this.. RM15 per slice okay??!!
Rach and Shaz asked me out for dinner, Rach was cooking the PRAWN Feast, and guess what,
i ate upto at least 30 prawns.. whoa..
In order to have sufficient time for the prawn to being digest in the stomach,
we decided to watch a movie, a mandarin comedy produced from Singapore but starring by quite a lot of Malaysian called - The Love Matter
and i've learned a new joke called Potluck.. haha

Next, the outing to Murni,
as a celebration for the orientation bash committes,
Most of us attended it, had a great meal at Murni and we decided to go to SWENSEN for ICE-CREAM..
Fortunately, it was on tuesday - the earthquake day for SWENSEN...
Well.. the ice cream is finally arrived:
after halfway eating, somebody found out it wasnt our order,
'Eh, where's my sticky chocolate?'
'Siapa order this strawberry flavour but never eat?'
'Yuck why this mint taste like this one?'
'Is it ours ah? is it ours ah?'
'Eh waiter~~ ini bukan yang kami order punya'
'Tapi awak semua sudah makan halfway'
'Bukan, ini memang bukan apa yang kami order.... #%!@#$%!@#$%$#@'
'Okie la, i pergi tukar'

The second earthquake is soon been served, but the flavour isnt right again!! drama rite?
so, we decided to go down(we're sitting upstair) to the ice cream counter there and tell them wad exactly we want..and FINALLY the one we ordered is here...

On the 19th of Marh, Philip's Birthday, we went to a restaurant at TTDI called FRAME,
There are a lot of pictures in frames decorating the whole restaurant,
the food wasnt tht satisfying though, but the environment is really not bad..
This is the 'Must-order-drink', i forgot the name,
it's a blended mixture of Grapes and Lychee
Which is better then my lemon twist, but i still like the colour of my drinks.. haha..

This is the oxtail noodle soup, it's not tht feeling but sufficient for dinner,
a lil bit of salty though..

And the final destination of the week - AH MEI'S CONCERT!!
Please allow me using chinese here.. haha
这是场能量指标爆棚的演唱会，

阿妹的歌声，阿妹的实力，阿妹的台风，阿妹的魅力，有谁能比，有谁能比啊？？？

一串串回忆就在阿妹的歌声下被联结起来，说阿妹陪我长大，一点都不夸张。

从‘你是爱我的’到‘我要快乐’，这些电台电波率超标的热打，（我的回忆被勾起了）

从‘badboy’到‘不顾一切’的经典high歌，（我的血液沸腾了）

从‘剪爱’到‘别在伤口撒盐’的冷门好歌，（我的情绪被掀起了，眼泪也掉了）

从‘维多利亚的秘密’到‘夏日浪花’的新版舞曲，（我的双脚和全身的律动被阿妹带走了）

从‘人质’到‘原来你什么都不想要’的高难度演唱歌曲，（我的情绪高亢到极点了，也又哭了）

从‘可以抱你吗？’到‘三天三夜’的精彩加场演绎，（我醉了，high到醉了，也哭了一下下）

阿妹，你赢了咯你~~ （她走了，回去了）

不需要奢华的舞台，只有把能够把我们的情绪呼来唤去的声音，这就是阿妹的本事。。

谢谢你，陪我一起成长~

排到这里，就不想拍了，因为我的双手已经举起，不停的摇摆，没有空拍照。。
好了就让这两张照片画下句点吧。。

Oh yea, it's time to study and wish everyone goodluck in their weekly tutorial questions,
dont study till too late until need to sleep in the library ah~~

guess who is this.. haha

and the last but not least
thx juli, michelle, lisa and jiayun for the Zenmai Meal on friday afternoon
thx relyne for the Sakae Meal on friday night
and Debbie's mug received in the saturday midnight..

as my 21st birthday presents.. thx thx thx a lot!!

2009-03-03T00:41:00.004+08:00

It's been a while i bought this album.. But i dun hv the time to really write bout it.. haha

Recommended songs are of caz
心跳 and 玩偶。
No doubt, lee hom can sing very well with his unique voice, especially for those songs like 心跳（heartbeat) and 'Everything',
as his usual style goes, very smooth though the vocal range is super big..

I still rmb tht last time 小虫 did commented on him,
bout his singing skills and song composition skills,
我完全没有任何理由理你（No reasons to pay attention to you) actually shoot him back 'kao kao'..

In this album, still there is a duet,
this time, she found no one but ZHANG LIANG YING,
the second runner up of super girl 2005 (or 2006) ~~i cannot rmb la~~
I like this song too but the lyrics is like not v meaningful though..

Best lyrics of the song should goes to 春雨里洗过的太阳 (the song after washed by spring rain)
I think if i m not mistaken, the lyrics is by his dad..
If u all r free enuf can go see the lyrics,
for those cannot read chinese rite, can go and see the translation la.. haha

Next.. it's time to talk bout my new phone

This is the new phone of mine.
It's 5800 express music touch screen phone
I chosed this phone caz i like the 'not too big' screen
I dun like to carry a brick out everyday.. tht's why i decided to buy this phone,
and the most importanmt stuff is.. it's actually an express music phone,
which is important for me. wahaha

This phone indeed has a lot of 'hidden' function which i havent found out,
so, need to spend more time on it though,
to build up the relationship.. haha..
Mine is blue colour rather then the more popular red colour..
caz i like to b diff.. u all shud know bout this..
haha

Went to Ampsquare with Rach and Shaz last weekend,
the friday night was a nightmare
but the sunday afternoon session is better though,
EVERYONE please bcareful of the TERMS AND CONDITIONS APPLIED thingy
yea.. shud go and ask before u say YES.. haha
and the TIRAMISU SHAKE is nice.. haha
BEtter sound system then redbox, mayb it's still new la..
Better sofa and tv also.. haha
and i prefer the waiters there, they wont come into the room IN A SUDDEN like redbox waiters always do -.-
But food and beverages wise, still redbox win it all..
and, song and artists browsing is easier in redbox rather then the new Ampsquare..
Afterall, it's not as cheapskate as we think..

Orientation week past and i think i know some of the juniors,
at least i know ROY,
the junior was accidentally yumcha with us before the semester begins.
haha..
Orientation was fun and tiring and wet..
haha.. orange team won the second place and our chief buddy won the BEST CHIEF BUDDY title.
This is kinda surprising,
not to say tht patricia shudnt get tht title, but i still cant figure out how they choose the best chief buddy,
probably she is very good in leading all the team member to get their things done
She belanja all the team member with her prize, at least this shows tht she is better then anyone of the rest.. haa
Nyway, orientation bash is on this coming saturday,
hopefully everything goes smooth.. and i cant wait to wear my YELLOW colour beach pants.-.-

First day of class is boring,
and worrying bout my semester d,
the lecturer.. erhem.. aiks..
better dont mention the name la,
he is very 'computer technician' look and i couldnt understand any single word from him,
and he is MONOTONE, or mayb TONEDEAF.. walao
damn boring sial..
meet all old frens,
chit chat with them like nobody's business.. haa
and tiring of caz,
looking forward to finish the semester,
and can hv fun during the holiday. haha..
*still in hols mood obviously..

Well, shud wish Jwen and ChinChin do well in their first sem.
Caz ONLY if they do well, they will b permitted to overload next semester or next year..
Let's graduate ON TIME...

2009-02-23T22:18:00.002+08:00

不是我不明白，是我最近很爱说的一句话
因为我可以把它唱出来。

很久没有到红盒子去了。
可能明天或是几时想去走一圈，
去唱一唱歌。。解解闷。。
很想和一大群朋友去唱的我，身边总是缺少这些志同道合的家伙。。。
哈哈。。
没有再怪啦
人各有志，可以谅解。。

最近忙得不可开交，
很喜欢忙碌的感觉
很讨厌忙碌后的疲惫
但又很享受忙碌后的成就感，
想必大家都是一样，
都是那么的矛盾。。哈哈

最近从广播听到一些搞笑但具意义的对话：
是这样的

老婆正很忙的做饭着
老公：油放少一点，菜切细一点，汤煲久一点，碗筷洗干净一点。。
老婆：你很烦啊，我做菜做了这么多年，还要你教？？
老公：你现在知道当我驾车使你在旁边碎碎念时，我有多么的痛苦吧？

接着就是一小段的音乐。
然后DJ接着说：
讲你呀！！

顿时觉得有一种被骂的感觉，
却觉得那是多么的真实
又多么的贴切
果然，读ＭＡＳＳＣＯＭ　的就是很有创意～～

2009-02-18T20:53:00.001+08:00

i m getting frustrated to the internet at KL home actually.
i cant really figure out what is the major problem of it.
both streamyx and wireless router seems fine and the settings are okei,
but i just dont know why it keep dc-ing and me gotta restart the whole system again.
it's like N-th time for me doing it d..
With lotsa hopes everytime me doing it -.-

nyway, i got my new handphone d~
hee..
it's NOKIA 5800,
still charging th battery,
hopefully can use it tomolo la..

and, schooling life coming back again in a week time.
hopefully i can still cope with it this year la..
haha... i can forsee the scene tht me is typing out all the report during the weekend..
just checked out my timetable,
and it changed again.. -.-
the lectures are generally shifted to earlier of the day..
my first lecture gonna b at 8am on monday...
probably i will accidentally fall asleep during it..

well.. while i m typing this in a super fast speed,
it dc twice...
GOODNESS..
STOP DC-ing

2009-02-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

since when i did my post, i dont think i can remember that.
Well, of caz there are lotsa updates but dont think i m able to post them all up..haha

26th of January was the first day of chinese new year..
Think this year was quite bored as not much ppl come and visit us (*usually they are a lot of visitors).. haha
then keep watching dvd at upstairs -.-

Second day of new year went back to seremban..
cousins are all back there and had chat a lot with them..
suddenly found out tht ALL OF THEM HAD GROWN UP..
and i m an old fart now..
sad.. terribly sad..
everyone is asking me about SPM, A levels, and Uni stuff..
goodness, i m now still couldnt believe tht i m turning 21 this years,
and all my aunts, uncles and cousins just reminded me everytime they see me around..
totally sien diao lor..

Goot a lot of angpao this year actually though there is an economy crisis out there..
but it seems like doesnt affect the figure of my angpao much leh..
mayb they know i need a ew handphone..
and i think i fall in love with nokia 5800, express music..
but it costs 1399..
erm.. tht figure might cause a problem to me..
caz
caz
caz

i just bought wang lee hom latest album --> heartbeat...
and ticket for ah mei's Malaysia concert on 20th of march..
zenmai restaurant's stamina roll and salmon salad -.-

i know i need to save up..
but they are just freaking attractive to me.. =.=

Well, me going back to school in 2 weeks time,
but i got myself involve in the orientation bash..
and guess what..
i m the treasurer..
walao.. the activities chairperson trusted me so much and put me in such important post..
'i will get my things well done mdm..'
anyway, the orientation bash will b at beach side, and i think it gonna be a success.. caz i m one of the committe.. u all shud trust me

tht's why though me still in the holiday
but u will see me very mobile and travelling between subang and jaybee.,.
hope to see ya soon nyway my meimei..
and dont forget my birthday present guys.. haha

2009-01-19T22:58:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year is just around the corner..
Probably because of the 'not good at all' economic of the world, mah hometown has no CNY mood at all..
Normally, at hoemtown jaybee here at such period,
there will have lotsa sjops and shopping complexes extend their business hours in order to let those youngsters to get their things after they work..
and usually there will have lotsa 'illegal' stalls along the road selling 'bak-gua', and those CNY food and decoration..
but i m not sure why they are almost gone this year...

i lurve new year caz i actually earn a lot during this special occasion..
haha.. u can always say me money face, indeed i m one.. haha..

me is kind of lucky and all things goes smooth this year,
hopefully there will be a 'not bad' year ahead.
i hope i can have a peaceful one, and wish that i can at least maintain my result, i think this is enough to make my year great~
haha..

just got my new specs back few hours before,
and getting new phones soon..
new year must have new stuff, tht's what my mum always says..
this is how traditional my parents are
though i dun really understand the meaning behind every kind of their so called 'must do'
but it's the way i spent my whole life until now.. hee..
mum always say: life aint as easy as before though we are in new era now..
this is wad i strongly agree to her..
dont know since when i felt the tremendous improvement will end up like a bubble somehow..
it might just disappeared while we r not eyeing it..

back to topic,
well, wish ya all have a properous new year..

gong hei fat choi~

2009-01-09T22:41:00.003+08:00

好久没有像现在一样，这么幽哉现的在手提电脑前面，听着电脑里不依顺序播放的歌，一边写网志。现在播到《白色巨塔》电视剧的片尾曲，‘曾经太过年轻’。

很喜欢这种感受，
二零零八的结束，是很多很多人迫切期许的，或许是经济低靡吧。。
咖啡店总喜欢把脚抬到椅子上的叔叔都说：2008快快过，希望一切能重新再来，物价没有起~
在刚过不久的元旦，相信大家都许了这个愿望吧。
当然，年还是要过，
大家都把希望寄托在这个新年上，
曾不经意的看过这一行字，它却一直在我的脑里徘徊，
它是这么写着的：人生最大的破产是绝望。
有希望，就有明天，有明天就有更多的希望。。

曾经，我也有个诸事都不顺的年尾，
那一年，家庭，经济，健康，友情，爱情，学业，事业皆失意。
真的很灰心，
那也是我这一辈子以来最瘦的阶段。。
因为真的憔悴了，真的觉得很彷徨。。。
但是日子总得过，
又不能让家人看出自己很辛苦无助，
就只能在朋友的身上找到寄托，
可是偏偏在那年的12月31日，
一位好友背弃了我。。
感觉到似乎整个世界正放弃着我，
脑中盘旋着的是：世界上多你一个不多，少你一个不少。。。

还好，坚定的信念，让我走出阴霾，
因为这一句话，我醒了
‘看看外面，看看世界，看看过去的自己，看看现在的自己，然后问自己看见未来的自己吗？’
如果看得见，那，自己是怎样的，
如果看不见，那，那又何妨不把现在的自己去找寻未来的自己，
不过未来的自己是否想看见现在的自己？
人无千日好，花无百日红，
在恶略的东西，终有否极泰来的那天，
而那一天，必须靠自己争取，
是现在的自己~~

这就成了我每一年对自己的要求，
无论做什么，自己是最清楚自己的，
只要自己不要迷失，只要自己不绝望，
那么，一切都应该不成问题。。

去年，成绩还相当不错，
也可望今年要乘胜追击，
要把自己的基础打好，未来几年才比较不吃亏，
不小了，总不能让人操心吧。。
想要独立，就要证明自己有这份能力。。
要在国外闯出一片天，就得拿出实力的表现。
表现需要机会，机会靠自己争取
别不择手段，那应该没问题吧。。。
哈哈。。

今年的我将从青少年正是蜕变成青年。
成为有为的青年人，是我的目标，为了自己，为了大家。。
加油啦我~~

刚打完，耳边响起了‘蔷薇’这首歌，
是由我的偶像-萧亚轩唱的叻。。。

2008-12-23T22:31:00.008+08:00

HURRAY.. she got married..

okie la, stop making fun of jade d.
well, everyone in sunway knows tht jade's getting married at the end of the year,
as a classic perfectionist, she is damn stress for her wedding, and also her marriage life after tht.
she made effort on it and finally she got married!! haha

well, since dont know when
i've been listening tht jade is going to get married.
and of course, as the best student ambassador in sunway college JayBee (erm, i claim tht by myself)
our student service officer is getting married wor,
i shud lend my long hand to her rite?
i offered my help and ah miss jade also start giving me task just like a year ago.

few months before the wedding,
she already started to do her backdrop, aisle decoration and things ALL BY HERSELF..
goodness, what a super woman..
haha.. well, my job is relatively 100 times simpler then hers.
just need to help her up to hang things up, and sing during the dinner...

and let's have a look on her wedding hall..

20th dec 2008, an important date for both of them.. Jason and Jade..

and some random shot at night.. and dont ask me why i m always at th left side.. i also confused..
it just happened..

very tired to upload pic one by one.. this is a more convenient way though.. wahaha
want to see more? come look for me lor..

2008-12-17T12:36:00.005+08:00

There are few things needed to be update here.

First, which flattered me a lot few days before.
he apologized and got our misunderstanding which last for 2 years cleared.
i wonder why he suddenly tell me this,
but i seriously flattered,
not because i care bout him a lot as u all think,
but
it indeed reliefs me, QUITE A LOT..
as the old saying goes: there are neither forever frens nor forever enemies.
Had been 2 years,
we are fren again,
or i shud say we can finally know each other better now.

Second incident:
it happens between me and an facial aunty in singapore.

Aunty : Are u studying in Singapore?
Me : Nah, me studying in Monash University Malaysia
Aunty : Oh? Surprising!! Caz most of the Malaysian workers here speak mandarin or malay. They cannot speak english at all..
Me : Huh? Actually MALAYSIAN do speak english, it just that they rather speak in their mother tongue when they meet their own race.
Aunty : Is it? So, Malaysian can speak ENGLISH huh?
Me: Of caz WE can, mayb not all can speak english fluently, but i think there isnt a problem for basic conversation.

I was wondering why Singaporean always THINK that Malaysian cannot speak good english. Some of Malaysian speak fantastic english,
and some of them are just like me, being educated, and of caz have no problem to communicate with others in english.
C'mon, Singaporean, it's an outdated to assume that malaysian cannot speak english,
it might be a truth if it happened on a decade before,
The younger generation in Malaysia can speak english fluently and we DO COMMUNICATE WITH EACH OTHER IN ENGLISH.
Even my father is english educated, my mum can speak english also okie?

Third...
which is the saddest thing to mention here

this is the newest CIQ ( Customs, Immigration and Quarantine) in JayBee. It looks amazing but...

It's totally the biggest MAZE i have ever enter.
No doubt, the new building is very spacious and very nice to see, since it's new..
but the thing is, it makes us ( those who takes public transports ) walk like nobody business just to reach the immigration counter. Then, we gotta find the way to get our bus. It's at the first or ground floor if the 3 stories building
I was totally SHOCKED that,
there are around 300+ ppl there waitin for busses,
but there is only 1 bus in 20 mins.
Oh my goodness,
everyone squeezing themselves into the bus,
like the sardine fish in the sardine can.
We can hardly breath inside the bus and swearings from the passengers flying in the bus.
Finally we managed to get out from the customs,
on the way to singapore, we saw lotsa busses are in the jam (in opposite direction)
and we know why there are only 1 bus in 20 mins.

This is not the worst thing ever,
the worst thing comes when i m on my way back to Jaybee.
Usually, by using the old custom in Jaybee,
if there is no jam, i can reach Jaybee from singapore custom in 10 mins time, or even shorter.
HOWEVER, i spent 45 mins on the cosway to Jaybee though there are not much cars.
IT's because, they are no special BUS LANE for busses, and any vehicles must try thier best to squeeze in to 2 lanes from 7 or 8 lanes.
Bus uncle describes the way to custom from the bridge is like the way up to Genting highland,
there are lotsa twisting and sharp corners,
and these two lanes are the maximum width of the road to the cosway,
indirectly, it means tht, no matter how efficient the workers in the custom,
there will be A BIG JAM here.
sharp corners, insufficient space for busses, insufficient lanes, ineffective workers and machines, unclear signboard direction, weird design are the factors that make all this crap happened.
some of them say: First day using the new custom, sure jam one..
but i said: It gonna jam forever.. dont worry..

Aiks, No doubt the custom look very grant and nice,
however, the extra space inside just to let more cars or ppl q-ing inside,
the problem doesnt solve at all,
but it seems like getting worse.
i do pity those johorian workin in singapore,
immagine, u will need at least 2 hours to get into singapore,
and use at least 2 hours to come back to jaybee.
This is wad we called life?
perhaps we can get a better life, and it all depends on our dear goverment.
As we do follow wad u all had planned, but it turned out like this..
AIKS...

2008-12-10T11:16:00.004+08:00

Taken from here

SYDNEY (Reuters Life!) – Travel can open your eyes to some of the world's most beautiful sights and buildings -- and to some of the ugliest.

Web site VirtualTourist.com (www.virtualtourist.com) has come up with a list of "The World's Top 10 Ugliest Buildings and Monuments" according to their editors and readers. Reuters has not endorsed this list.

"Some of these picks have all the charm of a bag of nails while others are just jaw-dropping in their complexity. Love them or hate them, the list is certainly entertaining," said General manager Giampiero Ambrosi.

1. Boston City Hall; Boston, Massachusetts

While it was hip for it's time, this concrete structure now gets routinely criticized for its dreary facade and incongruity with the rest of the city's more genteel architecture. Luckily, it's very close to more aesthetically pleasing attractions.

2. Montparnasse Tower; Paris, France

While it's almost universally agreed that this ominous stick is a blight on the landscape of the world's most stunning city, its detractors admit that there is one very good reason to take in the view from the building's observation deck: it's the only place you can go to get a view of the city without it.

3. LuckyShoe Monument; Tuuri, Finland

It may be over-the-top, but there is something to be said for the giant, golden horseshoe that looms over Finland's second-largest shopping center. The shoe, and, in fact, the entire town in which it is situated, is said to bring good luck.

4. Metropolitan Cathedral; Liverpool, England

The people who work here must be sick of the space capsule jokes. Even those who find the building's shell a bit "spacey," have to admit the circular interior is pretty spectacular.

5. Port Authority Bus Terminal; New York City, New York

Those who pass by this iron monstrosity might be tempted to ask about a completion date, but alas, this is the finished product.

6. Torres de Colon; Madrid, Spain

Like a set of giant salt-and-pepper shakers, these matching towers loom over the city to the dissatisfaction of many area residents. The buildings are also known as "El Enchufe" or "The Plug" for the plug-like structure that holds them together.

7. Liechtenstein Museum of Fine Arts; Vaduz, Liechtenstein

Some feel the building's minimalist box design is a triumph, others say it's an eyesore.

8. Scottish Parliament Building; Edinburgh, Scotland

Stone, oak, and bamboo are part of the make-up of the Scottish Parliament, a building that is the subject of much debate.

9. Birmingham Central Library; Birmingham, England

One look and it's easy to see how this genre of architecture came to be known as the "Brutalist" style. Not surprisingly, the issue of its possible demolition has been looming for years.

10. Peter the Great Statue; Moscow, Russia

Some 15 stories high, the larger-than-life monument was designed by controversial artist, Zurab K. Tsereteli, whose statue of Christopher Columbus was repeatedly rejected by the United States.

(Editing by Belinda Goldsmith)

Anyway, these are some of the ugliest building in the world.. can u distinguish them huh.. haha

2008-12-05T23:37:00.002+08:00

5.45pm

phone rings......

ME : eh? yiwen called wor
YW: hey, xiao zhang ah, u know z wei is here at jaybee
ME: huh? why? how many of them??
YW: He and his family gua. Come down to attend wedding ceremony.
ME: OOH.. phew.. haha

5.55pm

phone rings

ME: Zwei ah, i heard tht u r here wor..
ZW: yea, i come down purposely to look for u..
ME: R U SURE..
ZW: haha yea..
ME: want to yumcha??
ZW: yea, lets yumcha at OLDTOWN CAFE at TAMAN GAYA.
ME: alright ah
ZW: 8 pm ah.. 不见不散。
ME: no problem.

6.00pm

ME: SHIT LA, where is TAMAN GAYA..

phone rings ( i mean YW's phone rings)
ME: eh, how to go TAMAN GAYA AH?
YW: oh.. (then teach me how to go).
ME: thx..
ME: (wondering) tht one is TAMAN GAYA ah.. ooh..

8.10pm

YW: i m working ah.. tomolo me gonna work for WONG LOU GAT as promoter
ZW: WOMAN can easily find high paid job
ME: Yea lo..
ZW: how short ur skirt is?
YW: VERY SHORT AH.. haha
ME: haha, u all din wear skirt is it? APRON is all u wear..
caz liddat easier to let customer 上火。
YW, ZW : hahahahahahahahaha..
...
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just liddat, we spent 1.5 hours sitting there and talking bout our working experiences and how bored our hols is.. wahaha..
but anyway, it was fun.. haha

2008-12-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

went back to college this afternoon,
was raining heavily..

the surrounding are just too familiar for me,
lotsa memories slipped on my mind until i heard:
NG SHAU CHONG..
stupid CHANG SHIN YEONG calling my name out LOUD from the admin office,
feeling damn so paiseh and rushed to Jade's room

went there to get some update for her wedding prep.
me going to help out for her wedding, on the 20th this month.
5 days before christmas.. EXCITING, just get excited but dont know why
wahaha

Was discussing about the wedding suddenly me saw my BIG MAMA
with GREAT STUNNING NEW LOOK.
haha, big mama had turned to a REAL MAMA this Sept,
Need to ask for photos of her new born baby.. haha..
she said she was me lunch-ing with my mum on Jusco day,
Jusco day - result releasing day..
me was damn so freaking tensed up tht time,
and wondering why dia tak panggil aku tht day..
mayb busy-ing looking around, caz the word SALES are hanging all around.. wahaha

okie, back to the topic..
Jade is insanely busy for her wedding and made her kinda restless these few weeks i think,
tht's why me decided to hep her up for her wedding,
she was asking my opinion bout some song for her wedding dinner,
and i found out that..
MY ENGLISH SONG LIST IS REALLY LIMITED..
i think this holiday is the time for me to enrich my english song library.
haha..
well, as usual got lotsa funny conversation..

Jade: wad song to play in my wedd dinner? (with miserabe tone)
me : erm, put DONT KNOW WHY..
Jade: yea~ the lyrics states: dont know why i didnt come..
me: erm, tht wasnt really good hor..
Jade: haha, yea..

me : (complaining my housemates and groupmates)
Jade: haha, i like ur creative ways to actually answer their question and react to their stupid actions. U shud publish a book called: 'CREATIVES WAYS TO ASK UR HSEMATES TO....'
me: .....
Jade:....
me:...
and the conversation nvr end.. haha

well, i think i look seriously A LOT OLDER then my actual age,
everyone said so,
i seriously think caz of my skin condition
as u all know,my skin is really NOT MY AGE..
mayb due to over hectic academic stuff
which made me sleep VERY LATE for the past 8 mths.
aiks, to rescue my skin,
me decided to
USE ANY WAY,
in order to make my face LOT MORE younger,
any tips?
aiks

2008-12-03T23:28:00.003+08:00

考完试已快一个月了
成绩也出啦，
还不错，过得去。。
怕会不及格的那两课，竟意外的成了我最高分的两课。。
真是柳暗花明又一村。。。

常言道：
休息是为了走更长远的路。
在这个假期，虽然常常我在家里，
但是，
既不觉得闷，反而觉得还挺充实。
回想起过去的八个月，
就好像打了场战似的，
不停的埋头苦读，完成课业，修好学分，
却忽略了身边久违的欢乐与生活素质。

向来很追求生活品味素质的我啊，
虽然还是保持着一贯的作风，
但是总觉得没有可以好好放松的机会。
很久没有以另一个角度来观看这个世界，
也很久没有在睡前好好的思考。
以前的室友说，
静思。

好久都没有这种机会，
即使是真的有时间静下来思考，
亦会为课业及身边周遭的活动而烦
一年来没有在生活上进步，
觉得自己离目标中的自己差了一大截

最近的我看见一篇文章，让我回想起六年级的时候。
这篇报道说，
为什么你没拿到7科A
其实人与人之间的比较是最致命的，
孩子的成绩竟已不再只是他们付出的努力所换回来的成果，
也是父母在闲聊时的话题，
更是换取心头好的条件，
也同时成为了政府大打广告的新闻，
渐渐的，成绩已是赌注，孩子是棋子，考卷是庄家，政府是赌场，家长与老师是赌徒。
赌的是一口因为比较后得来的一份光。

曾经也是棋子的我们
也是背负着同样的使命，就是要越多A越好
也造就了不少贝多芬，背了才有很多分
对学到的知识一知半解，背了就够了嘛。
往后的课业会一直往下滑，就因为底子不好
考获再多的A也没有用，
路遥知马力阿

感叹了，说说我常做什么吧
最近就刚整理了一堆衣服。

亮色系的衣服越来越少，
因为读书那儿的水很肮脏，
不想把我亮色系的衣服被浑浊的水给搞淡
所以干脆穿回黑色容易洗咯
哈哈。

快要过节了，有时购物的时间了。
哈哈
下次再展示我的战利品吧
拜拜

2008-12-01T22:19:00.001+08:00

it's gone..
sunny gone d..
4 years of driving it..
and end up selling it..
aiks..
cars come and go..
-___-

100th

2008-11-21T01:01:00.002+08:00

This is the 100th post..
had been a month i never update my bloggie, caz i was thinking wad to write for this special post.

Frankly, kind of surprised tht me actually did it.
yeap, to post 100 posts up here.
wasnt in my expectation,
caz things seldom last long with me.. haha..
me short of patience nyway..
haha

well.. within hundred, there are few very important numbers for me.. let's see..

1 - when i was 1, me moved to JayBee from Kl
3 - my 3 bestest fren
7 - my lucky number
11- the house i lived for more then 10 years, this is the first place which belongs to my family..
15 - my name is in the 15th of the list for primary 1
24 - my birthday.. 24th of mac
56 - the number always come along with me, no matter wad.. included my ic.. except my phone number
61 - the length for one of my arms (in cm)
99 - the number i hate the most.

well, this is kind of bored i know.. haha
nyway, i m expecting to write something special since 100th post onwards..
watch out for this oh
haha

2008-10-19T21:57:00.001+08:00

I M BORED~ anyone can talk to me?

=(((((((((

nvr get this bored b4..

noone going out with me
noone chatting with me online

NO one No one NO one~~~ -_____-ll

2008-10-19T01:38:00.002+08:00

那一天，有人问我要不要去一个讨论室读书，
家里，有人问我要不要到书房读书？

可是从来都没有人知道
我一直都不喜欢面对四堵墙的感觉
那是种寂寞吗？
或许是畏惧寂寞的心在作祟
一直都不是个不堪寂寞觉得家伙，
最近有一种很微妙的转变，
可能人也慢慢的老化，希望身边有个人，
但是却不想那个人做出任何干扰到自己的事情，
出于自私？或是什么？
也搞不清楚要个人在身边时种需求，还是种奢求。。总之很怪的自己似乎在被周遭紧绷的气氛酝酿着。。

看来可能压力颇大
毕竟莫纳斯不容易读呀。
心情一天比一天紧张，
食欲一天比一天强，
要似乎又有变坏的趋向，
精神，身体，健康，学业一起拉着警报。。。
好忙哦。。。顾此失彼应该是这么一回事吧。。

许许多多想看的电影，
想要看却找不到伙伴儿，
想要唱歌轻松身心，
也找不到伙伴儿，
想要出去走走，
也没有目的地，
就因为大家都很懒，
其实是要读书吧。。。
不爱有求于人的我，
不会学着怎么说，
搞到最后，最无聊的是自己，
哈哈哈哈。。。

瓶颈又来了
快溢出来了
怎么办？
真不想为别人的事忙，
可是又有谁曾经想要好好的来了解我这个人？
大家总都会把问题丢给解答机器去解答，
殊不知，解答机器的背后，
曾经或目前
有着的问号
有着的烦恼
有着看不见的，摸不到的另一面。。。

只要用心聆听，只要用心体会，一定能感觉到。。
是我没用心体会，没用心聆听你们？
还是没被用心聆听？没被用心体会？
长手怪的背影，不曾有人敢靠近，
让长手怪更加想念在那里不离去的青与莹。
长手怪累了，有人知道么？
会有人知道么？

长手怪一直都这样想着。。。。。
或许自己不够别人累吧，
可是回都想一想，看一看，
已经很长的手也都抱不完所有的负荷了，
另一只手呢？
想把双手一什，可是东西没抱好的话。。
别人的手又没我这么长，怎么来拿？
总之能抱多少就多少

别人的郁闷倒是抱回来了，
也同时把快乐与精力分发出去了，

有补给站吗？？

2008-10-19T01:21:00.002+08:00

Have been studying all the way from week 10 till now..
today is the end of the week 13,
and wad have i studied?
Erm, kind of a lot, but it's still insufficient to sit for the exam obviously.

Every people are busying to study
and indirectly,
they sort of too concentrate
and pay less attention on other stuff,
especially a guy,
who cannot really multitasking now
...........................
...

Yeap, that's me...
I've been studying in library quite a lot during last semester
and
i thinking of doing the same this semester caz the outcome is not bad anyway
I do know that my pappie staying alone at home
~~mayb~~
~~probably will~~
IS

BORED...

As u all know,my papa work in the morning and stay at home during night time
and too bad i was in the library from morning till night... (late night)
Me went home tht night and i saw him sleeping on the bed,
and it was around 12am,
he doesnt usually sleep that early..
I was curios, and

Jeaseanjore: Hey, i m back, why are u sleeping so early?
Papa : (turn to me)
Jeaseanjore: U sick is it? Or very tired huh? Didnt u play games?
Papa : I M BORED~~~
Jeaseanjore : i go shower first... (with guilt and shame)..

I dont meant to leave u behind..
and i m sorry for it..
I knew u realised that actually u cant help much in my studies,
but i don can feel the love from u by cooking dinner and takkaire of me well
~~though the dinner is erhem.. oily~~
me truly appreciate it

To rach: i knew u acc me to redbox la~~ haha..
and like wad u always say: WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND..
So, just be urself and u know wad u r doing..

To Exam gang: Aza Aza la~~

To Jade: Me not very stress d.. not like tht day d....

Expecting for 4 months holidays~~
and wondering what shud i do for it~~~
DILEMMA~~
tht's human.. haha

==!!OUT!!==

2008-10-15T19:20:00.007+08:00

Been very busy recently, therefore really have no time to update my bloggie.
I used to check my blog out everyday and found tht actually they do have some other visitors (besides me) checking out my blog.
Well, i think i really need to update more often to keep them in the visiting list..

Exam is around the corner, this sem exam timetable is kinda crazy and irritating.

Here is my examtimetable.. erm.. it's tiring though to prepare for four subjects in one shot..
Caz the first two subjects are the killing subjects for the semester and chemistry ( the second subject) has too muh to study la..
Tht's why nowadays monash students are all studying like there is no tomorrow.

Din go for any movie for such a long time, redbox as well..
Life in KL are fulled with assignments and test and projects too..
Most of my frens here in KL never want to go to redbox with me at all...
Wad they want is to SHOPPING.. i acc u all for shopping so many times d, can u all acc me to sing?? for one time per sem? i sound kindof pathetic here.. Ouch, perhaps its the pre-exam-syndrome. Haha...

Well, was addicted to Leona Lewis's Yesterday.. It's super nice for me especially the lyrics.. think most of u will like it. My Itunes had been playing for like 300 times within 2 days.. Haha..
Will change my bloggie song to it soon (like may be a week later??!??). Haha..Will upload the lyrics to my bloggie as well while i m free enuf to change it haha..

Well, u know wad? Ryan has his own bloggie..
Comment of his bloggie : DEAD and BORING.. shud update more and add more application la..
here is the link,
www.roarbutnotmoo.blogspot.com
.. enjoy the boredom inside.. haha

I had a super short haircut, made me look a bit retarded.. but i like the light-ness it gave me.. haha...
The funny thing is when everyone see my new hairstyle will ask me this:
When did u cut ur hair?
Why so short?
haha
Me not EMO, me not TOO STRESS.. dont worry guys.. just want to get rid of the hair which is 'too-long-for-me' .. STOP laughing me, JunYin.. haha

From this length

to
FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

k la, tht's all for today.. hope exam fast fast come and fast fast go..
fats also fast fast come fast fast go..

Oh yea, ChinaWeiWei.. congrates for ur audition..
And never forget bout MeiZi.. All the Best.. and where's my email?

Everyone : Good luck for exams la...

2008-10-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

MATLAB NO MORE!!!!

BUEY TAHAN!!!!!

2008-10-04T11:11:00.002+08:00

迷糊的我

回来啦，回来可是没把很多咚咚带回来耶
都说最近有严重的金鱼记忆。。
迷迷糊糊的度过每一天，
是放假的严重后遗症。。。
休息的也还好，看来真要为来临的考试加油了。。

Met MeiZi and Carelyn on the Hari Raya.. haha..
Went to the most cheapest japanese restaurant, NYUJUMARU at JayBee (our usual hang out),
So used to the familiar environment,
so used to the familiar menu,
so used to the familiar dishes,
made our gathering as ful as before and as fun as before.. haa
MeiZi suggested to go for a movie spontaneously,
me dont wish to go wor,
know wad me and carelyn did?

we act like we are her indon maid,
keep asking : Go left or Right Mdm?
and: KENAPA TAK BAGI ORANG BALIK KAMPUNG
and.....
'Mdm, kami tak tau apa itu GAN C GAN C (supposed to be kan xi), tak paham mdm, cakap indon boleh??'
haha.. we did it like in front of the crowd, and she were so damn paiseh.. haha..
this is fun,
can do it to ur fren oh..
but first practice the indon essence la..

Out with jade too..
Jade is getting married soon,
20th of December,
wth her beloved, Mr. Jason
She had been very busy for the preparation and think she will have a great one

Big Mama Jessica gave birth to her first baby, Jayden,
if i din rmb wrongly..
He was born at 29th of september, at 3.25am, weight 3kg..
wish u stay healthy and be filial.. hee

2008-09-27T16:46:00.002+08:00

Feel very lazy recently.
Even have the thinking to actually terminate all my friendster, facebook account and bloggie. Caz, really have not much time to keep myself updated. Hahaha, but seriously it's kinda hard to do so.

More and more people found my bloggie out,
and i dont hv camera to snap pix and upload them here,
feel tht my bloggie bored the readers..
K, i know i can get it from u all, but i m LAZY wahahah..

Came back to JayBee last nite,
xie xie XIAO MEI MEI for driving me back..
Due the 'not too good' connection here, i counldnt play FLOWER..
extremely SAD...

Mama wanted to get my back cured and
asked me to go for a treatment near my house there...
and now, my back is fulled with 'blue black".. sobx

lotsa plan this week,
somemore need to acc my mama to shooping
and need to study for FINAL..
wad a HORRIBLE and BEESY holiday.. aiks

Anyway, need to ciao d, see ya all bakc in KL soon.. hee

2008-09-22T16:02:00.002+08:00

很久没有回来与大家见面(哈哈,很像是什么知名节目的主持人).
事关因为追进有点忙.很快的,年终考又要来了,想必又得呆在图书馆乖乖温书了.

最近和不在身边的好友通电邮，很奇怪，
似乎像有心电感应似的，我们总在彼此还挺低落的时候能够感觉到对方的寂寞。
这是所谓的默契吗？
或许吧。。
很多时候，人与人之间的关系就是那么的奇妙，
没有任何科学原理能够说明。
很快就能见到这位朋友，
心里有的只有期待。。。

虽然身边的朋友一直围绕着，
可是很多时候并没有那么得开心，
一向来心里筑的那堵墙都比谁还高，
坦白的说，现在身边的每一个人都还真的只是纯属玩闹，没有一个能静静坐下把酒谈心。
可能在不同的环境长大，有不同的价值观，
看事物就没有那么一致。
人说，与不同的人看同样的风景，风景会因此而不一样。
这句话就在这几个星期内让我感觉到它的真实性。

俊胤说，与现在这一班朋友很好，和老朋友就有了份隔阂，少了玩乐声，多了份客套。
不知道为什么，很怕这样子的咚咚发生在我身上。
想都没有想过会是这样，或许是青和莹都不曾让我觉得我们在任何聚会里感到安静，或又有那里多了份客套。
反而这班在KL的朋友，我越来越感觉到和他们的距离，
或许自己思考方向本来就有点异常吧，又或许厌倦了？
真的这么快就厌倦？
哈哈。。我也不知道。
或许每个人都和我一样，刚认识的朋友就不会说得太多。
人的围墙高矮不一，很难评估嘛。

妈妈说：人要知足常乐。
虽然最近常常哈哈大笑，但是心里知道这份喜悦就只能维持那一刹那，
好就没有一件事情让我既是回想起来都会不由自主地会心一笑。
哈哈，看来真的有点悲哀耶。

家里也发生了许多事，
虽然表面上大家看起来没事，可是有苦自己知。
所谓家家有本难念的经，
只要携手共度，相信能够解决。
老大，沟通是很重要的，
而沟通的关键是语气和用词，
沟通的对象是家里人，我不相信我们家里的四个人有怀了什么坏主意，
包括你在内，
我始终这么相信着。

看了家好月圆这套戏，荷妈说：一个母亲看到让她最心痛的事情是：自己的子女不和睦。
然而，我更觉得一个母亲看到会让她更心痛的事情是：自己的孩子不能与自己好好的沟通，更找不到问题的主因，一把年纪还得自己在那里猜猜猜。

好了，今天就打到这里，
感触会一直涌上来，
还是得回到现实，
大家加油。

2008-09-05T11:32:00.002+08:00

每一年的这个雨季，都会是我那一年的瓶颈。
懒洋洋的，什么都不想做。
明明就有很多的功课还没完成，很多很多的书要温习。。
可是就很不想动。。

或许人就有这种想要脱离的本性。
看见责任向巨轮这样想自己滚过来，就恨想侧一侧身，技巧性的闪过。
可是现实往往是残酷的，
想要侧一侧身的时候，就会发觉原来自己身处于悬崖边。
用尽吃奶的力量把所有都解决完后，就发觉自己的腰骨不能复核。
这位老朋友跟我也快一年了，
不时的发作，令我有点吃不消，也是让我懒惰动的原因。
对身边的人来说，我的腰痛似乎不怎么样，看起来也没怎样。。
这令我更觉得自己没有用的说。

常常这份感觉就是把推至瓶颈的那股力量。
人人常说，能者多劳。
我发现我自己似乎没有来得那么有气魄，
更不时觉得自己的腰上似乎在阻着我。
在街上看见任何一个与我年龄相仿的人在街上正常的走着都会令我感到我自己是半残废。
因此，那份残废的感觉又越来越近，
越来越觉得自己很残废。
年纪才刚满20岁，身体的机能似乎像一位80岁的老人家，
那种感觉很糟糕。。
每次想要到一个地方去，就会好想要走十万八千里。
其实我不是懒，我是痛。
所以请你们多多见谅。。

就酱吧。。。

2008-09-01T21:34:00.003+08:00

I M BACK...
well, these few weeks are kinda tiring and lotsa things to do, especially during week 7...
Projects and reports were flooding in.. And some co-curiculum activities too..
No time for myself, and had been sick for twice within 2 weeks.. poor me.. haha..

Bought Elva's new album..

Was kinda nice album, found tht she looks like Maggie Q lately.

Presentation was at saturday morning, lotsa funny stuff happened..
Monash ball is right after tht, it was a great success anyway
Fren of mine, Rachel won the title Miss Monash.. Congrates....

Sri Hatamas for merdeka night, somebody got drunk.. haha..
very ugly..

Not much to blog about as now very dizzy and a bit sick..
see ya soon...
anyway, like this song recently, called 一颗心的距离。

2008-08-10T00:27:00.007+08:00

08.08.2008,
the 29th Olympic started and the opening ceremony is so damn nice.
the stadium is awesome,
ZhangYiMou also present the tradition of china through all the performances,
they were fanstantic and think everyone enjoys it.
Here are some pic for the olympic last night:

The bird nest.. hee nice rite?
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The 5 rings which is the symbol for the olympic game. Everyone WHOA when it rose from the flat screen on the floor.. Tht's how ZhangYiMou always surprise us..
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Not to forget bout the 'never absent' fireworks. It reminds me about chemistry anyway, thxs to EMILY GOH..
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Had potluck party at my house yesterday to erm.. erm.. celebrate olympic... dont laugh oh u all..
well, these are our dinner!!!

everyone made his own food except SOMEBODY..
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well, me dressed up nicely and wanted to go to bangsa to chill out just now..
then i got a phone call and it spoilt my mood completely.
may be i need to clarify here,
DONT EVER PUT HIM IN FRONT OF ME EXCEPT IN MONASH FOR FEW MONTHS LATER.
i know i m bad, but i cnt help to get frustrated.
U all know i will do wad i say.

ARIES here...

2008-08-07T23:07:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. how boring our uni lecture is?
I took this picture last week,
It's Jwen's right hand.. damn so thin rite?

Haha, well tomolo olympic open ceremony oh.
everyone is excited bout this,
frens coming to watch tv and we are going to have a potluck party..
yay..

2008-08-03T23:35:00.005+08:00

Mobile
is the only word to describe my weekend.
Let's start from friday bah~~

Friday 01.08.08

well, early in the morning, parents told me tht they have to go back to hometown.
and i was left alone heee...
after class, around 4.30,
GuoYi went to my place and wait for the barbecue meeting at evening, around 6 o'clock.
After fetching Moo from condo,
we then go to a house in SS17.
Well, tht's my second barbecue on tht week.
It's a bit different from the usual one.
The gathering is strictly for guys
and i think tht's why i spend more attention to my chicken wings.. haha..
too bad the fire wasnt set up well, *seriously think me and junyin did a better job..
As an *almost* (erhem..) expert in barbecue,
i told mOo how actually to make a nice chicken wing
and also telling others about myself dont know how many times.
I think one of the guy from England there is kinda funny and interesting,
A normal christianweekly meeting - singing and sharing as usual,
i was kinda expected wad will happened in the meeting
but i think not for Mooo..
he seems a bit not used to it.

After tht, i rushed back home for JIA HAO YUE YUAN.. the last free episode i can see thru Astro on Demand.. *sobsob*
then we went out to murni ( me, Moo and Eric*yap*)
while we are happily eating there,
bimbo zwei called and he was damn so bored at home and he wanted to chill out.
Moo and me sent Eric back to hostel and then wait for zwei at my place
hang out to AC and meet the FFK girl at there. FFK girl = bimbo Jwen... oops

After finishing the freaking nice chicken fillet, 4 of us feel like shisha and went to the mamak at SS16.
Too bad, the shisha fellow doesnt want to do wor.. then QueenB suggested to go to Bangsa, and it was already 1.30am..

Well, without considering much,
we went to Bangsa like nobody business
having fun, chat a lot and did lotsa stupid stuff..
QueenB even introduced us a blue colour drink called COPPER SULPHATE.
haha, only me get the joke... haha..

Dont ever look down on bimbo,
it's really fun to hang out with them anyway.
haha
they can warm the atmosphere as easy as ABC.
caz they dont need to act stupid.. haha..
and now u all know how happy i m bah...
oh yea, now i shud introduce a new bimbo to u all..
he is Ryan Moo Fei Tzhung.. haha
He actually volunteered to do so
caz he is sort of ENVY Bim (Wennie) and Bo (Jwen)
and he wanted to join their group.. oops..
real bimbo do tht.. and he is one of them..

Well, shisha till around 3 something and zwei send us back to our place,
think he will only got back home around 4 something..

Bed time...

Saturday, 020808

9something in the morning,
Mr.Eric Mok smsed me in the morning 30 seconds after i woke up.
yea we wanted to go to PC fair,
Daren me GuoYi Moo and AhMok went to KLCC using LRT at Kelana Jaya.
Bought lotsa stuff with slightly cheaper price.
got back home around 6, and went out for indon food with 3Bim-s.
we then went to friday for desert at FRIDAY.
EXTRMELY nice and thick brownies with vanila ice cream.
Had a nice chat with Jwen and made me forgot my keys there.. ouch..
went back home arond 11 and went out and walk walk till 12.30..
then leave moo walking back home alone (paiseh lah i m damn so tired)
haha..

人是种矛盾的动物
也是个只以自己为中心的生物
许许多多的事故发生了
自己永远都是最委屈的那个
或者是那个不需要付出任何责任的那一位
人会随着环境的变化而成长
不再是从前那样，也不懂会变成怎样
不知不觉伤了身边的人
伤人的也好，被伤的也好
反省，往回看
枕头和夜晚是最好的反省伙伴
加油。。

2008-07-31T10:18:00.004+08:00

It's been 3 weeks life without Internet connection at my new place.
Broadband by Streamyx is kinda troublesome and lotsa shits happened to it.
Even call them for assistance also cnt help me anything.
Wad can i do now is just wait for their phone call,
by the way, i've been waiting for it for days....

Well, back to Uni since 14th, week 3 now..
Syllabus are getting tougher and less time actually for entertainment now.
Initially, the usual agenda for every night was ONLINE,CHAT and CHILL
but now, m forced to change it to STUDY, TUTORIAL, PROJECT and TESTS...
Uni life is getting colourless,
the repeating routine made it worse,
Well, i think tht's the way to learn something hard? haha..
Wasnt really in STUDY MODE these few days,
keep dreaming while sleeping
and causes me cant really focus and concentrate in the class..

There are few odd dreams last night,
I was draming bout something funny..
The dream is roughly about this:
I woke up in the morning, and i saw newspaper is on the dining table.
The headline is: SHOCKING NEWS.. (-__________________-lll)
i was kinda curious and take a look at it. ( for those who knows me well, i dont like to read newspaper).
I found out tht, the goverment has a new rule,
it says tht
EVERYONE IN THE COUNTRY HAS TO REPORT A SHOCKING NEWS ABOUT HIMSELF/HERSELF.
Ha, when i was wondering what's wrong with the government,
my family started to discuss about their very own daily shocking news and asking me to think about mine as well..
Then, alarm ring..
and i woke up..
I m still wondering why I dreamt bout this and dreams made me sleepy... *yawn..

Well, yesterday was Rachel's birthday,
went to Indah Villa and help her in her barbecue birthday party.
Chicken wings, sausages, corns, mashmello, sotong, garlic bread, INDON mee and even KENTANG made around 20 of us there damn full.
The weather was great and the fire is good. (JunYin and me set it up anyway)

Lotsa shit happend during her 19th year.
Wish her all the best for her future and hope those shits made her grow mature.

Here's the song dedicated to her during her birthday party..
Take A Bow by rihanna..

How bout a round of applause
Yeah
Standing ovation
Oooohh Oh Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standin outside my house
Tryin to apoligize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please
Just cut it out
And dont tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
Really had me goin
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closin
That was quite a show
Very entertainin
But it's over now (But it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You betta hurry up
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin bout "Girl I love you, you're the one"
This just looks like a re-run
Please
Wat else is on

And dont tell me you're sorry
Cuz you're not
Baby when i know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
Really had me goin
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closin
But that was quite a show
Very entertainin
But it's over now (But it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

Ooohhhhh
And the award for
The best liar goes to you
For makin me believe
That you could be Faithful
To me let's hear your speech
ooohhhhh!
How bout a round of applause
[hee he ha]
A standin ovation

But you put on quite a show
Really had me goin
Now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closin
But that was quite a show
Very entertainin
Yeah Yeah Yeah
But it's over now (But it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now

Well, time to say goodbye, rushing for class now ,ciaoz..

2008-07-22T12:37:00.003+08:00

it gonna be a long one.. hee..

Well, me just moved into a new place near indah villa ( Sunway KL), and the connection isnt here yet, and tht's why me is not able to update my poor bloggie.. hee

Well, my result for sem 1 was OK, satisfying though because i finally pass my dynamics, which is the killing subject for me... The rest was OK and quite expected.

First week of Sem 2 is kinda bored. As the lectures are kinda bored and there is second DrLan anymore. No more jokes but lotsa calculations (with calculators this time... No worries).. may be were too bored of continuous lecture, we had a steamboat feast at my new house. ( so called the house warming)

Everything is so unplan and random, we decided it on the day before. I m in charge in almost everything that day, was tiring but is fun though. Went to the wet market in the morning with moo ( Wennie put aeroplane lor).. and bought lotsa stuff.. Start preparing after the only lecture tht day. Everyone was quite satisfy and the steamboat is YUMMY.. Can u imagine we spend 15 bucks each and have lotsa nice food for tht? It's extremely worthwhile.

Cards game is a must for gathering. Maphia games and ~~Truth or~~ Dare made Zwei and Guoyi crazy.. Haha.. GuoYi was asked to be sexy and Zwei was trying to be horny. haha..

Few days later, saturday, went to KLCC with Wennie, Ryan and Daren. While we are on the way to KL sentral, we found out tht Wennie ahs a fans club in facebook, it was set up by her fellow frens. Haha, it made her got the urge fly back to KK to fix them up.. haha.

Meet Eric (Yap) for dinner after he got himself a tix to MTV Asia Award which is going to held in Genting on the 2nd next month. Can see that he is actually very excited and damn so high.. gaga..

Meet Relyne and had a great time with her. We were laughing non-stop in Sushi King while the waiter serves us something went out of proportion.. haha..

Well, rushing to tutes now.. ciaoz
and CHin typed this
~~CHINNARIN ROX BABEH HAHAHAAHAHA WEEEEEEEEEEEE~~

2008-07-09T15:28:00.002+08:00

第十九届台湾金曲奖（讲）

恭喜夫人贺喜老爷，我们家的曹格是歌王，并不是gay...
蔡健雅两度夺得最佳华语女演唱人。强！！！

今年的得奖名单和以往有点不一样，
没有那种出乎意料的成分在，
即使有也是其中一两个奖项。。。

大嘴巴，最佳演唱组合。。。
其实挺令我感到訝意的说
毕竟怎么说，对我而言实力强悍的演唱组合竟然输给了他们。
Soler，创作型美声男子组合，一直是我心中的赢家。
但是如果有观赏整个颁奖典礼，就可以抓到评审的口味。

今年的评审可能喜欢新鲜的，不保守的唱腔
美声- 可能是夺奖的其中一个元素，并不是夺奖的关键。
完美的唱腔- 保守的唱法
有点瑕疵，没有走音- 惊喜。
评审的口味不容易捉摸，可是却能够被理解。
得不得奖，主要靠实力，还得靠点运气。

就像苏打绿，坦白的说，我不太喜欢他们，
但是意料之内他们肯定能够卫冕，
毕竟乐团在弹奏的紧凑度是关键，而苏打绿的确说得上是符合这个条件的，
歌曲受到大家的喜欢，
尤其是主打的那首，无与伦比的美丽。。
对我而言，强过小情歌很多。。
主场的演唱也有明显的进步，
也或许是背负着‘最佳’的束缚，这张专辑明显的比之前更精致。

谈谈最佳‘国语’男演唱人吧。

先谈歌王吧，坦白的说今年他并非最有实力的，但是他是最多元化的一位歌手。
就凭这点，他成了位实际的歌王，
没有了李玖哲和黄立行的挟持，曹格顺顺利利地登上王位，险过剃头。
陈奕迅，完美的唱腔是成名的主因。
唱现场的歌声跟从CD听到的没有大分别，
可能以前我们称这为实力的见证，但是现在，我们说没有了惊喜。
评审的品味在变，因为乐迷的品质在变。
E神，仍然是歌审议名，不过要赶得上时代的脚步，来点惊喜好吗？
方大同给我的第一印象是- 它有很强烈王力宏的影子。
一直以soul作为看家本领，很完美的转音，有营造气氛长处，
但是试想想，每一首在专辑里的歌大同小异，听了十次或许还有惊喜，一百次后呢？评审也是人啊。
杨培安和阿信，一贯的高音作风听了反而有点刺耳。
歌不是因高亢而好听，也不是因为只有感动而悦耳。
TANK，其实很有潜质，快慢皆宜，
因为声音的多变性受到限制，不能像曹格一样玩弄乐谱。
有点可惜，但是没有关系，再多努力吧。

歌后篇。。。
Tanya的实力，有目共睹，有耳共闻。。
少数的创作型女唱将，强！！本来我就很看好他，只不过女歌手的竞争是在强烈，莫文蔚前面防守，张惠妹，梁静茹背后直追，看来TANYA以后必定得有所突破，才能稳住阵脚。
莫文蔚独特的唱腔，有点类似走音的特质，正是评审所爱的那一型，
今年无疑是因为唱腔没有TANYA来的稳定而落败。下次再来吧。不过她不是说不做专辑了吗？录歌在网上卖的网路歌手能来报名金曲吗？？
燕姿和淳佳一样，太保守了，美声不是夺奖的关键。。淳佳的辨识度还不够高，燕子的低音也是个问题。
梁静茹，真假音转换的有点做作了这张，或许是没有创作来为自己加分，所以每次入围每次落败，现在流行创作啊。。有了演唱的实力不够，或许能来点惊喜？？
阿妹的高音有压力？放不开？还好吧？
可是明显的阿妹的声线没有以往来得好了。累坏了声线吧，也或许是为了找对方想而把自我失去了，总之加油吧。。。。。。

2008-06-25T23:09:00.002+08:00

1. Do you like chinese food?
Err.. kinda.. Me chinese mah..

2. How big is your bed?
Twice of my size..

3. Is your room clean?
Extremely clean, got kakak mah..
If it doesnt clean, kakak must watch out d

4. Laptop or Desktop computer?
Lappie.

5. Favorite comedian?
Me.. i think i m not only a comedian, i m a joke sometimes

6. Do you smoke?
Wad do u think??

7. Does anyone like you?
I HAVE NO CLUES... may be yea.. wahaha. perasan sial

8. Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice?
I know condo and rice.. but hu is she? or he?

10. Sleep with or without clothes on?
depends... see who is sleeping with me.. oops..

11. Who sleeps with you every night?
Amelia, Bernice, Cecelia, Dylia, Ella, Felicia, Geradine, Hemma, Jacquline..... and Zoe.

12. Do long distance relationships work?
Dont think so, but it might works..

13. How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
My dad is a cop, so is tht count?

14. Pancakes or French Toast?
French toast

15. Do you like coffee?
Yeap =)

16. How do you like your eggs?
my eggs? erm.. I m satisfy how they are now..
Wahaha

17. Do you believe in astrology?
Nah..

18. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Jeanette..

19. Last person on your missed call list?
Bro

20. What was the last text message you received?
'I edy bank in the money"
I m RICH..

21. McDonalds or Burger King?
McDonalds.. Hmmm~~

22. Number of pillows?
2

23. Last thing you ate?
Papaya

24. Last thing you bought?
Megazine

25. What are you hearing right now?
Elva's latest song..

26. Pick a lyric?
a chinese song called tian tian xiang ni

27. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
I've never had PB & J... and i prefer not to have any jelly on it...

28. Can you play pool?
Not very good

29. Do you know how to swim?
of caz!! i learnt it before okie?

30. Favorite ice cream?
Rum Raisin is nice..

31. Do you like maps?
NAh..

32. Tell me a random fact:
I m bored.. extremely

33. Ever had a hard on at work?
no, if u think u can prepare a musical within 3 months. Prepare everything with ur boss ONLY..

34. Ever attend a theme party?
Yea..
A-GO-GO
Pyjamas
Animal
and Uniform night..

35. Ever do a keg stand?
Nah..

36. Craziest place you've slept after a night of drinking?
Slept in the boot

37. What is your favorite season?
Summer

38. What is the first music video you ever saw?
I cnt remember.. i think it's an oldies..
I sang since i was young..

39. Pick few movie quotes:
Do u remember what is ur first candy?

40. Favorite quote:
walao EH.. very familiar with u is it?

41. What is your favorite hangout?
Redbox ( with no frens accompanying me ), and of caz library MUM

42. Best friend's name?
they are in my link edy..

43. How long have you known him?
Let me count ah..

44. Last time you laughed at something stupid?
just now, few seconds ago

45. What time did you wake up this morning?
7.00am, was dragged to the wet market..

46. Wake up next to anyone?
Today no... Lucy got sick.. orgh..

47. Best thing about winter?
Hibernate!!!

48. Name a couple of favorite colors:
YELLOW!! brown?

49. How old are you?
4 + 7 +1 - 9 + 7 + 8 - 6 + 4 - 2 + 3 + 5 - 2

50. What month is your birthday in?
March

51. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated?
cool meh?

52. Favorite Dave Matthews Band song.
Never heard any of their songs

53. What are you doing this weekend?
wad did i do? weekend? everyday is weekend for me now

54. Who will take this survey?
err. Michele, Guoyi ( they din update for weeks) , Debbie and FenWei..

2008-06-20T11:22:00.002+08:00

WooHoo...
Cant help to post this online right after my last paper - Physics.
Well, some of u might know that most of my coursemates screwed up in the Dynamics paper.
Nyway, i m one of them of caz.
Lucklily today's paper wasnt tht hard,
was kinda direct though..
It's a wonderful ending for our SEM 1... Yay.

Lotsa conflicts happened last night.
which seriously affect my mood to study..
the whole night is in a very tension state and was very very very worry for my physics paper.
As u all know i never do well in ANY physics paper before except my A2 one.

Well, exam over and holiday begins..
play hard!!

2008-06-17T23:25:00.003+08:00

The last paper is coming soon..
Argh..
Cnt believe the 1st semester is going to end soon..
Nothing much to talk about..
JiaYou to fellow frens..
Last paper is coming..
YAY.. HOLIDAY!!!!

2008-06-16T00:21:00.005+08:00

This gonna be a long chinese post, so sorry for those who cant understand...
haha

好久没有回来写一些咚咚了。
在短短的一个月内，发生了许多的事。
让我还真得有点措手不及，不知如何应对。身体似乎在闹革命，不能好好的操作似的。
很渴望有个悠长假期，让我的脑袋能够静下来，一天或两天也好。

五月的第二个星期。
世界变了样。有块土地面临了几十年来从所未闻的灾害。
是的，要提的就是四川大地震。

五月的第二个星期，
我家变了样，外公他因为胃不舒服而送进医院。
是的，要提的是大家对我行踪的疑惑。

四川大地震，来得非常突然，朗朗的读书声在刹那间被倒塌声掩盖，
连救命都还来不及叫，已是一片死城。
始料不及的灾难，开始了。。。

外公进医院的消息，来得非常突然，豪迈的笑声与中气十足的说话，顿时被肠胃不适搞垮。
连厕所也都没有办法自己去，他觉得自己已是一位废人。
沉重的身躯还相当硬朗，只在于血压攀高的因素让他迟迟不能下床。
始料不及的灾难，也在同一刻开始。

地震的消息一传开，世界无不一人感到心痛。
纷纷伸出援手，或感到惋惜。
当然，事情都有双方面，
有人怜悯，有人无视，有人冷眼，有人心碎。
管不着。

外公的病情，家人都有耳闻
也知道事情不知是肠胃不适这么简单。
医生也做了比例常更多的检验。
家里的人，不是低能，而是不想提。
总之，有人流泪，有人不理，有人哀伤，有人欲表现。
理不了。。。

地震灾黎的痛苦谁知？
保持同一个姿势，
被困在同一个狭小的空间，
长达数十个小时的煎熬。。。。
总算没有白等，
喝尿，吃蚁，势必要生存。
终于有些人脱离苦难。

外公的痛苦有谁能替他受？
背负着养儿育女的使命，
他工作了一辈子。
长达数十年的煎熬，
换来的当然是一身的病痛
总算没有白做，
孩子们都有能力照顾她，给予最好的药，
终于他出院了。

随着时间的流逝，
喜忧参半的消息，令人惋惜的，令人动容的，令人震惊的
也随之而来，
母亲喂母乳，
孩子背母亲，
在我的眼里，看到的始终亲情的表现，爱的表现。。

随着时间的流逝，
短短3天内，
外公爆血管了，不及时的援助，
换来的是，深切治疗部的病床。
妈妈在家担心着
手机的铃声，家里的电话声，此起彼落
看到妈妈心中的焦虑，更看到了妈妈对外公的爱。

地震后第N个小时。。。
幸存者XXX杯震灾队伍救出。。
中国，人多好办事！！加油，一定要成功。。。
救更多的人。

‘大姐，快点赶上来，爸要插管了，越来越严重，快过不了了，他在写你的名字。’
‘好，我马上来。叫他等我。’
‘快~~’
第N个小时后，我听到了这番话，
一家人漏夜赶上吉隆坡。
看到外公插管的样貌，
妈妈再坚强的外表，也崩溃了。

渐渐的，地震的后遗症也越来越大。
整个灾区都是死尸的臭味，
整个灾区都是为细菌的家，
整个灾区难以继续寻求生还者。

渐渐的，外公离我们而去，就在老妈见他后不久
他去得很安详，带着微笑在芙蓉老家逝去。
身为外孙的我，也感到伤感，每晚都从大学回来后就直奔芙蓉。
哪怕我从家里就一直遭到芙蓉，
我也应献上我对他最后的一丝尊敬。。
丧礼简单庄严，
我们都做了该做的，
是谁没有完成他那一份职责，
我也没有想要追究的欲望，
外公已被抬走，埋了，
一切归零。
真得像是一场路途，
长途跋涉，遇见的人不计其数，坏人好人，奸人善人，
就看有谁来送他人生的最后一趟巴士。

眼看着报纸上刊登出来那个女人嚎哭的画面，
再想起当我看见所有的花圈都被搬走的画面，
感觉有点类似，
当然后者令人更感伤，
老妈在外公盖棺的那一刻，失控了。
这是预料之内的事，
因为我看得出他比谁都疼爱我的外公，
而我外公也比谁都疼爱我妈。。。

好啦，静下来想过了几天，
发掘人的生命很短暂，
它可以是漂亮的烟花，
或是烧芭时常看到的一缕烟。
可以色彩缤纷，可以淡淡的游过，一切随君决定。
外公好走，
四川的受害者，好走。
留下来的人，加油！！

2008-05-17T00:16:00.013+08:00

Hey, everyone..
today's post gonna be very interesting. haha..
why? see lah yourself, dont ask why..
Well, i m going to tell u all bout my frens in Monash~~ yohoo...
those who are reading this and u r my frens in Monash,
WATCH OUT..

1st of all,
Yi Wen jie jie
Yi wen was my coursemate for A level in Sunway JB.
she used to be one of those immortals in my course,
as she doesn't eat, doesn't talk, but just keep studying.
i wonder she really likes to study..
Well, after 2 months studying in Monash,
u'll know how FRIENDLY she is, and how LAZY she could be, and how realistic and how influencing she is.
Well, she know more people then me during the first few weeks, as,
she will go and say : "Hi, I'm YiWen" in the middle of the tutorial class...
She is damn lazy, so better dont go to her room and dont ask her for homeworks ( as she wont finish till the very last minute)
She is realistic as she wont attend those tutorial when there is no marks for attendance.
Except there are quizzes and tests which carry marks anyway.
And the last but not least, we all skipped class as we mix around with her too much, except GuoYi and WeiLeong.

Next, WeiLeong
Well, he is the genius among my group of frens,
He look a bit AH BENG, erm, caz of his 'golden+spiky+messy' hairstyle.

got it from his bloggie

oops, i forgot to mention, he is also one of those ~~lame~~ posers.
well, he can really fall in love to those girls stay in library most of the time
as he is a LIBRARY GUY.
well, YiWen got chance man.. wahaha..
Anyway, WeiLeong is from Labuan and he is a super nice guy
Unselfish but careless most of the time.
Well, overall, he is Nice and Intelligent.. and Hardworking..

Jervis's turn now..
Yay, bimbo...
he is super DUPER nice..
and he is HOT too..
well, somebody said it la.. not me.. i wasnt blind ( i m still not blind anyway)
wahaha, he got big(ger) chest la,tht's all
haha..
well, he doesnt laugh while he is lying, so watch out also.
His real name is ZhiWei but i like to call him as Jervis,
may be this is nicer for me gua..
Haha

Xing Kai, the guy with spec.
he is another genius but he is not as hardworking as WeiLeong
in fact, he might be more lazy then YiWen
trust me, he is damn smart
but damn lazy.. haha..
But he is kind enuf to teach u but later, u gonna lend him ur homework,
as he needs to copy,
aiya, u know lah.. haha

Eric,
with surname MOK..
he is the youngest among us, only 18.. gosh

This is the clearest pic i can get

he is funny and funky dude.
very mean, dont ever offend him
u cant afford it,
unless u r as debative as me..
but dont think u r.. Haha
he got a BEB with him, well tht's his car plate BEB 6***
he is one of the Grey Group member in our physics lab.
the other two are Jervis and XingKai..

Next one, the one staying at 4th floor~~ The Ju-Oon, JingWen...
Well, after her birthday,
i thik everyone in my course will at least know bout her.
Her house was haunted by ~~a lot of~~ ghost
and tht's how she got her nick.
Well, she is numb for it i think
so, we decided to promote her as the Miss Monash coming Prom Night in Monash,
well, i got few pics of her.. let's choose which shud she take as her poster for it..

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she gonna kill me when she see this

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Moo now,
Moo is his surname, not cow.. wahaha
He's from KK, Sabah..

Well, he confused us the most,
GuoYi and WeiLeong knew wad m i mentioning.. haha
He got a major problem, which is hairdrop..
Erm, we cant help him much
but we do help him a lot with PULLING his hair so tht they can grow faster.
WAD A NICE THEORY.. wahaha
we are just bored sometimes.. hahah

Okie, last but not least GuoYi
he said, i shud save the best for the last part,
indeed, i think he is closest to me among all the frens upthere
as he is a MEAN + very MEAN + extremely MEAN guy,
just like me
well, his appearance might con u tht he is damn so NICE,
but.. haha, i think for those u know him,
u will know wad exactly 'don't judge the book by it's cover' means..
haha
Well, he never fail to make me laugh in my Uni life
with lotsa lame jokes, and his singing.. wahaha..
by the time he sent me the pic u gonna see later,
i laughed like hell again..

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Well, he looks like my maths lecture nyway, and he is good in math.

I used to call him GUOYIZHAI
he then called me Sotong and he got his new nick, SeaHam (clamp)
he is ~~trying to be~~ FUNNY most of the time
well, he reminded me about another fren of me called HangTee,
as GuoYi is a religious fellow also ,if u read his blog u gonna know..
he might be coming to Monash,
they gonna meet (yay!!) if SeaHam doesn't go for NUS.
Haha..

well, for all of u..
my Uni life gonna be very dull without u all..
especially YiWen and GuoYi
U guys are just FUNNY and have the right frequency with me
haha
Well,
thx you everyone..
Jia You for the coming exam bah!!

2008-05-14T00:23:00.004+08:00

Recently, there are lotsa ppl was like troubled by their own problem,
no matter is from academic side, relationship side, or from their family and financial problem.
Well, when we were on the way to AsiaCafe near Taylors Subang,
Wenny said:
Woah, Xiao Chong always very high one de wor..
Frankly, lotsa unpleasant memories had been digged out and i remembered JunLoong told me the same thing before, he said:
ShauChong is always happy.

When i listen to this, i dont know how should i react sometimes,
should i deny tht i'm always happy and soemhow show them tht i m unhappy?
or should i just admit tht i'm always happy?
this made me confused and seriously, m i happy?

well, for me,
everyone has their own story,
their story might be very different from their usual appearance.

I might look very happy, but am i really happy?
he might look very cool, but is he really tht cool?

Human are unpredictable,
even though u think u know me well,
there are lotsa probabilities for me not to react as how u predict.

Lotsa frens are troubled by something called : their past.
their old lover, their old schoolmates, their old memories, their old buddy, or more.
For me, when i see them, i will say:
take it easy, time heals ur wound.
Caz i walked through it before... and time really heals
but the period might be long.

frankly, time doesnt heal our wound,
but it actually
(i) indirectly changed our perspective on something,
when we dont see this thing as important as before,
we'll find out how stupid we were.
haha..
but indeed, the wound is still there.
(ii) helps us to get immuned of the pain brought by the wound
which we usually call NUMB EDY..

well, to all my fellow frens who caught by their past and couldnt put things down,

Walk on and take a bow to ur past..

nothing is more important than wad happenning in fornt of u.
those so called memories,
we should put it in an album, like how we keep our setems last time.

let the memories become something which able to fill our emptiness,
but not something to trouble us while we need to move on.
Jia you!!

anyway, had good food in Asia Cafe..

2008-05-11T17:40:00.007+08:00

well, it's been a long time i never update my bloggie. Because i m too busy lah..
Huh? TOo busy? Wad keep me so busy until i dont even take a look at my bloggie?

erhem.. listen up:

1. street carnival (which is N week before)
2. I was terribly sick ( but now i m super fine)
3. Maths assignments
4. Physics lab project
5. PSA assignments
6. Dynamics lab project
7. PSA lab project.
8. Another maths assignments
9. Coming Final Exam
10. Endless hoemwork
11. Quizzes
and the list goes on..

Yeap, i think we are all superb as we manage to do all of them.
Well, for those who told me before that : Uni life very relax de la..

OOI TAKE BACK WHAT YOU SAID.

or may be they arent engineering student in Monash..

Yeap, Physics Lab project again.
seriously, i lost the interest to actually tell u all wad's going on,
Just ike i ~~almost~~ lost interest in the lab project.
Too many things come simultaneously and
same as it comes, everything due and ends at the same time.
They happened just like sea wave.
It's fast and if u dont get urself prepared, u gonna drown in the sea.
Luckily i m still survive.
haha..
still, me gonna upload some photos ( or video) regarding to the project last week.

Everyone is stressed up as we are fucked up by the dynamics test last (x 5) weeks.
That's y i m so awake now to study for the final.
Can u imagine Shau Chong actually start preparing for exam like one month before?
Wad de..

Nothing special happened or may be i m to immuned to wad had happened around me
it's like a cycle,
Every upcoming event is so predictable and expected.
Even the outcome of it. Haha

First sem in Uni will end soon,
like few more weeks later.
It's kinda fast frankly speaking
but it was fun though
especially knowin so many funny frens,
however, some of them are leaving to NUS, NTU, IMU and so on.
For them, there are where they want to go,
me sincerely wish them all the best.. JIA YOU..

well, this is actually from WeiLeong's,the so called nerdy bloggie..
Happy mothers day..
for my mum and my frens ( dun be surprise, some of them are mother of 2 )

2008-05-02T16:26:00.002+08:00

很久没有用华语了。因为身边的朋友好多好多都不能了解华语。
不会华语的朋友，曾经我又一个很要好的。
好到形影不离，好到无所不谈，好到。。就很好。。
上一年，好朋友之间很平常的争执发生了，为了一些我们到目前都不知道为什么的一件事。
很倔强的两个人，一年多里，不说话，不交流，不见面。。
却一直打听对方的近况。
两个人明明就很关心对方，但是就是不肯承认。
总爱透过第三者来得知对方的近况。
就在我病得五颜六色的那一天，
在我最脆弱的时候，我又遇见了这个一年没见的朋友。
心里的感受- 五味杂陈。。
一切以前我们两个小伙子做过的疯狂事件，一幕一幕的浮现。
外表上没有像以前那样的合拍，
但我相信私底下的他应该和我一样，百感交集。。
如果他还是一年多前的他。

跟里莹聊了一聊，问了他一个问题，
JeaSeanJoRe 几时会回来？？
他说：
会回来的。。。

这又再一次的撩起我的希望，我也相信着
JeaSeanJoRe 会回来的。。至少有里莹陪我等着。。

2008-04-25T03:26:00.003+08:00

很喜欢这首歌，或许是这位女生的唱功了得。。
like this song very much, may be due to the skill of the vocal..

这首歌叫做 ‘可惜你不在’，
反复地听着这首歌，似乎了解了为什么这首歌的编曲是这么的高音，
或许是为了让唱歌的人，以宣泄的方式来传达歌词所想要表达的意境。

仔细听听副歌前的那个配音 (1.30 till 1.35)，
她唱得多么的伤感。。
每每听到那个部分，就会不自觉地起了鸡皮疙瘩，
撇开她的唱功不谈，整个情绪的表达已经足以让我竖起大拇指，拍手叫好。
很有爆发力的这位踢馆着，加油！！！

This song called '可惜你不在’， if direct translate, it means that : 'Too bad you are not here' ~~wahaha, it sounds funny..~~
Keep listening to this song over and over again, me seems like can understand why this song has so high pitch,
may be it wants to let the singer can convey the lyrics through screaming?..

well, if you listen to this part (1.30 till 1.35),
you will find out tht she made the song sounds damn so freaking sad,
everytime i listen to tht part, i'll have goosebum,
the way she convey the meaning of the lyrics is good enough for me to put my thumbs up and give her a round applause.
for this powerful participant, JIAYOU!!

too bad i m not talented in translating at all,
but hope u guys can understand lah.. hee

2008-04-24T02:07:00.010+08:00

Finally, my mid sem test week ends today by the last paper -PSA.

PSA - Process System Analysis.
It was fine though except the silly mistake i made. But i dun think it gonna cut down lotsa marks, HOPE SO la..

Haha, yay.. finally i complete the mid sem test week...

Went to my maths tutorial class just now.
Was so happy tht i got my assignment back, tht's my first assignment,
and i got a nice mark for it.
Frankly i was kinda surprise about it, as i never expect about it.
Thx to my gang in Monash tht really helps me a lot in it.
Found tht my female tutor is kinda funny,
she really can teach, but sometimes, of caz, she made some 'forgive-able' mistakes,
but never mind,
i think she is kinda good if compared to the last one who is seriously suck.
Anyway, she never made the class bored, and that's why i like her tutorial class the best.
Though she's not the best tutor in Monash though. Hahaha...

it's really foggy in KL recently,
the weather is damn changable.
Sometimes it's shiny like hell, but a moment later, it starts to rain.
well, it never failed to rain for the last 2 nights.
Different from most of u all, i dun like rains, but i like rainy nights.
It's not because of i can sleep better in rainy nights.
but actually i can concentrate more though.
May be everyone had fallen asleep and i was the only one who stay awake,
i can feel the 'long-lost' quiet-ness in the world,
feeling so comfortable and nice, especially tests period, which i really need to study...

Well, was seriously sick of studying the same thing again and again..
gonna rest for a day, and me have to start preparing for my final exam.

What i can feel now is : TIME FLIES..
gosh, i just couldnt believe that this is the 10th week i'm in KL studying in Monash, (including orientation and the mid sem break)..
this is so freaking fast,
within this few weeks, i found my gang of

'PLAY HARD AND STUDY SMART'

people, of caz some of them are not in the pic la..

They are
WeiLeong (with gold colour hair), JingWen (girl in black shirt),
YiWen(girl in white), AhMoo (middle guy, sitting),
XingKai ( guy wearing specs beside me), and
GuoYi (Most behind row)

Well, the missing one are: Jervis ( zhi wei la) and Eric.. (must be playing so hard..)

Anyway, if u r reading, CherWee, i might be able to attend ur wedding ceremony due to the 'shit-looking' exam schedule lor..
I'm so sorry.. I will try my best to make it.
Okie??

Anyway, street carnival is coming soon, LET'S HAVE FUN BEFORE EXAM!!!!!!!

2008-04-21T18:41:00.002+08:00

Finally, i m updating my dying blog. Really have to say SORRY as i was really very busy these weeks. Well, these 20 days are like hell. Nothing good happened but shit just keep coming to me. But anyway, i think the worst day had gone, better days are coming soon~~ yappie..

First of all, the cultural night, on the 4th..
Well, this is the first time i m attending cultural night in monash.
It's so called the largest event for the international student in Monash University.
It took place in the Multipurpose Hall in Sunway anyway,
Great lighting, great PA system, some great performances.
Standard of performance of caz is far more higher than the usual one we can see on road side.. kaka...
Well, i dressed up like how i attend last year annual ball, just tht i wear jeans this time..
here are some pics for it..

The emcee

She look familiar??

Yeap, she is JOYCE, the most common particle in my physics class

Great vocal - Steph

Another vocal, he caught most of the girls attention

Well, after the cultural night, me was asked to join as a commitee in an event coming soon, it's called the street carnival. And nightmare starts from here.
when i got back to my room, i try to allocate my april calendar, and SHITS happened.
I found out tht i m really going to be damn busy in the month of april.
Assignments, tests, weekly quiz, reports, projects, MID SEM TEST are pestering me.. gosh..

Well, let's start with the lab project,
this time we r going to throw a full boiled egg from certain height.
we are going to build a so called 'landing structure'
this is how my project looks like :

TOo bad the egg eventually still unsaved in the actual launching last last thursday (sounds like ages before)..Well, seriously i really didnt take it hard at all.. as i edy so tired to feel anything.

I spent lotsa time to fold the so called air bag for the project but in the end.. aiks.. let's not to say this anymore la..

Shits doesnt stop here.
My phone hang on the day before the laboratory session. I was so damn frustrated and then,
MY CALCULATOR DOESNT WORK in the same night,
I was really pissed off and frustrated,
and my calculator ended up in the rubbish basket.. Kaka..

Well, things getting better after tht,
met Miss How and Miss Janice from SYCJB,
they coming for a training
Poor Miss How, the skinny pregnancy still have to come all the way to KL for a training,, she must be very cham..

Anyway, my mid sem test now..
Mid sem test is kinda disaster for Dynamics. It was insanely hard though.
Luckily my physics ad maths stil not too bad..
PSA is coming in wed. Hope tht everything is going fine..

Well, Jingwen's birthday was on last friday..
we gave her a supprise by projecting this up on the during the lecture

and the cake too...

anyway, thx for fetching me to school.. hee

well, this is something random:

We just got too bored anyway, but i like the colour and specially thx to wei leong sang

Street carnival is coming soon, hope can see you there.
Dont ever forget the theme :
WET AND WILD!!!!

K guys, see ya..

This is for my roommate:

很多事情我不知要怎么开口
知道你会来看我的部落格，
看见你的手再度受伤
我真的很气愤
明明就快要痊愈的它，
又被你搞伤了，
可能你会觉得很奇怪，
我又不是你妈，
有必要发这么大火吗？
这或许是属于我对朋友关心的方式吧。。
身为室友
应该互相照顾
希望你会明白
也希望你能健康地度过我们最忙碌的日子。。
加油！！！

2008-04-03T22:01:00.006+08:00

ha, me back from holiday finally..
well, first thing need to share with u all is definately some of my pics during the field visit trip to Yakult Factory. These are some pics of machines and products.
It gonna make u feel WOW~~
but anyway, all the pics are taken with my 2 megapixel phone, so, the quality is a bit erhem la...

The main entrance

One of the machines -- seed tank

Moulding machine, making bottles

Products

Pharmaceutical products

Cosmetic

Others drinks besides those we always see here in the super/hypermarket

Instant Noodles?
WOW~~~

After coming back from holiday, indeed, as wad one of my seniors said,
YOU WILL BE CRAZY AFTER THE BREAK.
yeap, i feel CRAZY now,
endless lectures, tutorials, lab projects, assignments, homeworks, discussion and MID SEM TEST is coming..
Gosh, frankly speaking, i dont know how i spend most of my time in Lectures and tutorials for the first few weeks.
I dont feel like i m learning ANYTHING before the mid sem break anyway.

Well, i got a GREAT SUPRISE during the first lecture after the break,
which is reminded by a friend about the MATHS assignment.
Gosh, i really got no idea about it AT ALL.
I wonder when is the assignment given.
Therefore, i m just rushing all my homework and studying for quiz.
well, still feel tht - LAST MINUTE ROX.
Tht's how my INNER inteligence will be well used. wahaha.
caz i can memorise thing fast when i really panic for something.

Went to somebody room in THIRD FLOOR yesterday,
suddenly i feel kinda relieved caz my roommate is clean and tidy.
see this u'll know,
this is her room:

Well, i hope my room wont be liddat EVER.
haha
eh dik, clean up la ONCE IN A WHILE at least, wahaha..

next lab project gonna be hard, i think,
as i dun hv any idea for it YET..
due date = next week.. gosh..
jia you jia you...

2008-03-26T23:23:00.005+08:00

went back to college yesterday, yea, tuesday, for induction day.
When i got back there, i saw Ah Jade was looking something. And the first thing she talked to me was: EH, help me to look for a wire.
Gosh, tht's how she welcome me.. wahaha..
But nvm la, got used to it liao.
This year induction day is kinda fun and happening.
Can see AhJade put a lot of effort on it.
And i know how hard to prepare a SMALL event like this in the college.
It's even harder now as the timetable for every students now is a bit complicated la.
Anyway, the first stall i went to is MARKETING DEPARTMENT.
Big mama gave me a big hug and was saying tht i get thinner and asked me to stay for this status, for the rest of my life.
I was wondering when i got thinner, but actually i felt tht i m fatter now anyway.
May be because i m darker and tht's y it leads them to some sort of optical illusion lor. wahaha.
Both PEILING in sunway college JB pregnant.
May their GOD bless their children and hope they enjoy to be a MUM.

after chit chatting with colleagues in Marketing, i was brought to the centre court yeard to support Christian Fellowship booth,

Jade is COOKING~~~~~~ hard to see de lor, must take photo..

They were selling salads and hotdog bread with ONION,
seriously, this is the first time i eat hotdog bread with onion,
it wasnt as bad as i think as i m an onion-lover..wahaha
Finally, i met my MELON SISTER, debbie and fenwei,
both of them were kinda surprised i was there yesterday as i lied to them tht i m not going.
Anyway, they did a great job for the performance though i was unable to listen the whole song la.
And i dun hv the chance to take photo with them.

Soon, HangTee called and me rushing to RedBox.
He waited me for 2 hours,
from 12pm (when we supposed to meet), till 2.35pm.
Of caz he was late for the performance, it's not my fault though.
He was in bad luck tht day,
he kena SAMAN.. gosh.. but he deserved it.. wahaha

so fierce when he is singing.... The way he hold the mic, is so ewwww. wahaha

It was too bright for him (the flash)

well, tht was half of my day,
and going out for the night as well.. but tht one nothing to talk about.. wahaha..
k la, next time will post some nice photo i took in Yakult factory last monday,
do u realise tht, YAKULT produce cosmetic? pharmaceutical thingy?
Yakult's product is not only HEALTH DRINK, wad they produced will make u reel SURPRISED..
wait for my next (or next few) post(s) bah..

ANYWAY, thx for everyone sending me birthday wishes,
my HP was hang because of tht,
i really appreciate it..
THANK YOU GUYS..

to my roommate,
This is the second time ur wrist is wounded,
takkaire of urself oh...
And, i know u r lonely,
then u study lor.. wad to do? wahaha or chat with me when i m online..
JiaYou..

2008-03-24T00:31:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to me~~~

2008-03-23T11:32:00.001+08:00

By the time i got up, suddenly something just appear on my mind, tht is,
THIS IS MY LAST DAY TO BE A TEEN..
yeap, today, officially is my last day of my 19th years.
I felt reluctant to turn 20 before,
but after reading an article online
I felt kinda happy now anyway,
I dun mind to be older,
as most of my frens said i look like 23 or 25..
If in tht case, i'll have smaller difference between my exact age and my 'over-matured' appearance.

Anyway,
i got some presents from my fellow frens and again, thx~~
Here are those pics i took on the presents i received so far..
This is by HuiRuan, Juli, Michele and JuLi

World's best fellow.. wahaha

This is by Karina, Rachel and SzeJia

Nice radioactive bag and a birthday card filled with warm wishes..

Now i m waiting to back to my hometown, JayBee,
to meet more friends and get more PRESENTS..wahaha

Anyway, still remember the lab project i mentioned before?
But i never told u guys wad's going on about the project rite?

Well, let me roughly tell u guys wad we have to do for the physics lab project #1:

We have to send an egg from a point to furthest it can go, by using a rubber band, to catapult it to as far as possible.
Provided tht, the vehicle can not made by any parts of toy, no wheel, nothing can be rotate to help the vehicle to move forward.
And the egg must be protected so that it doesnt break after the vehicle launched.

The due date of the project was yesterday,
and tht's the day my group has to launch the vehicle,
our highest record before the OFFICIAL LAUNCH was 5.2 metres, mean is around 4 metres.
we were kinda afraid as our vehicle is a bit out of shape and some parts of it fall out few hours before it launched.
Well, really thx god tht everything went back to normal in the end
and we successfully send the egg to 6.27 metres ahead from where it's been launched.
Well, we felt overwhelmed as we never expect so much from it.
Tht's how our vehicle looks like:

Well, back to the topic,
i woke up this morning,
was kinda dizzy as i slept around 2 something yesterday after watching movie online.
Cooked porridge, for my wounded roommate.
this is the first time i cook something in KL, and think it's not too bad though..
If applying the knowledge of Process System Analysis,
the procedure is like this :

The 'raw' material

Waste

And the ingrediets after cleaning

The product

It's nice though.. Smell nice at least..
It's my mum's sercet recipe oh.. wahaha

Anyway, when i was bloggin just now,
bro sent me nudge on msn and asked me to read his blog,
Felt kinda touched and thx anyway to my bro, jeffery.
It's been a long time i never felt concerned by him,
but aiks, never mind la,
i m not petty after all..wahaha

It's time to go to Yakult Factory in Nilai tomolo
and time to GO BACK HOME..
with Relyne..
See ya~~~

2008-03-22T00:24:00.000+08:00

Holiday is coming soon, however i got lotsa plans for it.
Gonna have a 'almost-restless' holiday.

Yesterday was a public holiday,
can rarely sleep till 9 o'clock but was waken up by Bro's call.
Saying that they are coming to my hostel here to bring me out for brunch.
of caz they gonna bring the car to workshop, (my car died few days before)

Yin, Rach and Kari went out for Clubbing the day before.
I was alone at home that night,
wasnt in mood at all.
I wonder why, may be i was too tired recently and got not much interest on clubbing.
I dun like loud music and the smoky environment there.
Yin told me lotsa stories,
i) How much Yin spent made his life kinda cham 10 days later,
ii) How he protected Karina tht night,
iii) SzeJia's car broke down, Died actually...

Was asked out by michele,
they are going back to hometown this weekend,
left me alone in KL with Yin. Luckily he's not back, else, me gonna be bored..

Outing cum celebration #1 on 20th Mar 2008

Went to Pyramid and meet Michele and JuLi,
we went to sakae sushi.
It was the second time i got into tht shop,
still i like the system there
as we can order our meal by using the computer system there.
Really order by JUST a CLICK.
and the food will be served minutes after that.
Efficient and Nice Food.
We were discussing how much we spent and lotsa memories from A levels too..
Ha, was wondering how our fellow coursemates doing right now?
no doubt, everyone of us in A level quite close to each other as not much people in out course la.
They gave me a present, and i cnt help to open it out.
It's a nice and huge mug.
I like it very much,
thx to HuiRuan, Juli, Michele and Stella,
HuiRuan, Stella --> Medicine student from Monash University.
They were sick on tht day, tht's they cant make it for dinner.
We went to Secret Recipe for cakes,
If i not mistaken,
we ordered Oreo cheese and Chocolate moist cake.
Ha, as usual they are nice and worthful.

Around 7.45pm, i went back to Indah Villa, and another gang of frens of mine are meeting me.

Outing cum celebration #1 on 20th Mar 2008

Rachel, Karina, SzeJia, Yin and Jeremy asked me out to Asia Cafe to give me an early celebration for my birthday,
THey even bought me a nice bag and also a huge chocolate cake.
The chocolate cake was very rich and thick,
it indeed made me feel so satisfy after eating it.
U all know i adore cakes very much de la,
I cnt help to eat them up although i was seriously quite full yesterday.
Went for pool, i was sitting there watch them playing
as i m not talented in playing any BALLS. wahaha
i don't know why and they were discussing about my long--er arms again.
I took a look at the card they gave,
Kinda touched as they all wrote something nice for me, haha
Thank you to all of you again,
and tomolo gonna be my last day of my teen life,
i will really really spend it wisely. wahaha.

Jade called me just now,
had a nice chat with her
She was reminding me about my birthday though, and i was quite glad that most of my friends can remember my birthday.
Felt lucky to have all of you..

Will upload some pics about the prezie i received soon.
Hopefully can get some from Rachel also.

Yin injured his old wound again,
looked kinda Painful and hope he gonna get well asap.
I was worrying my back also,
as it seems like become worse these few days..
Going to Yakult on monday and straight away go back to JayBee..
Home sweet home,
no bed is better than my own.
Missed my bed..

See you guys soon for those of u in JayBee waiting me for celebration..
Parties, cakes, and REDBOX,
I M CUMIN BACK...............

2008-03-19T20:10:00.000+08:00

It's been a while, i never update my blog.
Was complaint by my frens bout this.
Hee..

I dont know how to blog a new post here as i can hardly express my feeling now.
I found that this is exactly how i feel when i was in A level for the first few months.
I'm not used to the environment and also those ppl around me.
I become very quiet while in the class and become more and more self-protective. I turned myself to somebody which is EVIL( described by Grace). It's not the real me, as i m just MEAN but not yet EVIL..

I m alone in KL ( it means i got no frens around me).. those who really know me and can share my joy and sore. U know who i mean when u guys see this.
Last time when i was in A level, still feel tht my frens are all around me,
but now,
meizi is in ShangHai
Relyne is busying for her assignment,
Tian can hardly be contacted.

Endless assignments, laboratory works, tests, quizes, and homework are flooding in.
How am i got time to actually get to know my new coursemates well?
As the moment we talk, it's discussing about our assignments and then rushing for classes right after it.
i cant really tolerate about this kind of life, i like to be free, not tied up by homeworks and those responsibilites from my studies.
May be tht's wad an engineer do, hectic and no social life.

I was listening to songs while doing my homework,
i heard some of those old songs reminded me about my cheerful life in JB.
Suddenly, something crossed my mind and was wondering when is the last time i laugh without thinking much? ( which mean really happy)

As time flies, man become more mature.
Nah.. it shud be, as time flies man SUPPOSE to become more mature.
It's some sort like forcing us to grow up and i m not ready for it.
Though i look older than my exact age, but indeed i felt reluctant to turn 20 also.

Frankly, i dun like my birthday this year,
none of my best frens able to celebrate it with me on the exact day,
even my faimily couldnt make it also.
I felt so disappointed and lonely of caz
no matter how many cake i'll be receiving this year.

Nothing much to post anyway,
due to repeating daily schedule, i m bored of my life,
I m not those kind of decent ppl.. i feel boring most of the time
I dont like how i feel now,
it;s lik though there is somebody there willing to share ur joy and sore
but u jst dun trust him or her.
It's all because of my self protection silently created a gap between me and my roommate and other frens of caz.
Lotsa things for me to share but i jst couldnt bring myself there anymore like before.
I doubt whether is because of that ~~USED TO BE MY~~ best fren
i dun hv self confidence to trust anyone else.

Though i look happy but i m not sometimes, it;s not emo, it's getting depress.
I forced myself to be happy while i m seeing the SUN every morning,
but recently i just cnt do it,
may be due to the weather or may be i m no longer tht naive to believe tht
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OPTIMSTIC HELPS IN MAKE LIFE EASIER.

2008-03-09T00:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a crazy day..
I got up around 10, skipped my bored maths lecture.
Oooops..
Went out at 11 o.clock with Rachel to Subang KTM,
Both of us look not too energetic and we know tht the day gonna be exciting and tiring.
She was intend to meet her father at somewhere around KL town area.
I wanted to go TimeSquare to meet somebody....

Since we were sitting at Subang KTM, lotsa funny stuff happened.
We were bored and we were discussing about how many of them wearing yellow and how well they can carry it.
And we saw a muscular guy coming, started to do some gossip on tht guy,
we are talkative, i know it.

Well, fortunatly,
we got into the super slow train on time, and we reach KL sentral around 12
Rach was screaming hungry to me when she was in the train,
and finally she had her McD Sundae Cup as her breakfast.

Reached time square around 12.20, i was late for 20 mins.
heeee. due to the terrible KTM system la.
Meeting up with my OLD fren, Ah Jade ah...
Yoek Jie, she was here for the election thingy and of caz..
visit me and SHOPPING~~~~

We went to grab our lunch at GasOline, the name of the restaurant.
The drink is not too bad for me,
but the food is a bit salty la.
There is a nice logo for that restaurant, it's an angry girl..

Jade was trying to get herself more younger, and we (Rachel and me) was asking her to mimic the cartoon.. Who knows.. she turned to a scary version.. It's like those so called SPIRIT la..

U know wad i mean la... See liao also u'll understand...

Anyway, we went for shopping but actually keep on chit chatting la.
Rachel was very concentrate on seeing some nice stuff for herself la.
Well, finally we got ourselves into a nice boutique for female.
* p.s: i got no choice...
Rachel was busying picking those blouse and shirts she likes,
me and Ah Jade then keep on laughing at those funny thingy happened around us when she was in the fitting room.
Here is a funny one.. We found a hand..

It's from the FAKE model anyway...

Well, Rach gotta go when we were just stepping into Sungei Wang Plaza
Tht is terribly packed
and the ambiance there is not nice la.
Me and Jade were walking around and looking something nice
suddenly we found this in a shop..

OLD JADE cost only 20 bucks..
We were all out of control and started laughing LOUDLY
At the same time, we were noticed by ALMOST everyone in the shop
and finally we felt EMBARRASSED..
Haha.
I m ot the only one saying she's old leh..
haha, tht's just for fun...

Meet up with Rachel and
we went to Pudu, Petaling street and finally we decided to go back home and rest
Jade continued her plan after tht and Me and Rach were deadly tired..
We walked from somewhere near Pudu to Pasar Seni's Transect station and tht's really incredibly FAR
and wad we were thinking was just somewhere to SIT

Got to Kl Sentral and waited for the train for 20 mins and finally we got into the train..
Something funny happened there.
The train was crowded and full with UNPLEASANT SMELL
It was a mixture of OIL, FOOD, SWEAT, Some body odour and the list goes on..
Fortunately, Nobody farted there.
Ha, but the guy stading in front of Rachel almost made her faint, it's a bit STRONG no doubt..
There was an uncle standing behind me, with a huge belle,
He kept on pushing me with it,
i know he doesnt do it purposely, but i jst cnt tahan,
i laughed...
but i was trying not to be noticed by him la
Finally i got myself into the car,
and went to ALDY to have our Dinner (9.00pm++)

Went back home, raining
me, JunYin and rachel decided go for a movie

StepUp2--TheStreets

Tht is definately a must watch
It can be categorised into some sort of encouraging dancing movie.

The dance moves were great

It reminds me about HONEY more than STEP UP
Anyway, it reminds me lotsa things used to happened in the dancing studio and how hard we all trained for a long time...

and somebody

but the move only reminds JY and Rach about CLUBBING
walao..

After rejected them for clubbing,
we went to mamak
and i found out tht my wallet was lost
it probably inside the cinema
and we went all the back there but in the end, cinema was closed..

We got back home around 2.45
and tht is the time i supposed to sleep
But really thx a lot to JuNyIn, my roommate
making me awake and i slept at 5 in the morning..
WIN LOR~~~~~
Yea, tht is how hectic my life is in KL
Bullshit la, it's only a day,
i dun wish to hv another one.
Ha
Anyway, i got my purse back
Really felt relieved... Phew...

2008-03-03T16:38:00.000+08:00

Tagged by EMO roommate - YIN
Instructions:Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
not getting married

2. If you can turn into anyone, who do u wish u can turn into?
somebody not being noticed easily

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
Timothy, Rainie Yang and Pak Lah, caz i dun like them..
* if i bring those i care and i love, they will be suffering there leh...

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Stage, any stage

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
None of my dreams will not come true..

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yes, i m a science student, and i saw rainbo before.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
Memories

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
make use of it, earn more millions, even billions or more.. I m greedy

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Yeap

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Caring (sometimes), neat, look funny when i whack him

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
as long as i love her

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
then u shud do an interview with T****hy

13. What is your ambition?
Standing up on the stage and sing those i love

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
I rather they will tell me, caz i know how hurt when u got back stabbed

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Air...

16. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
Stop nagging

18. Is there anything that u have did make u felt regret?
Not grabbing the chance to go HK.

19. What makes you different?
I wonder this, but they said, it's my 'don't care' character...

20. Is it being myself something hard to achieve??

i tagged
Jean, Relyne, Debbie, Ying Tian, YunJie Cousin, Karina, Rachel and JingTing

2008-03-03T15:57:00.000+08:00

又是一个星期一。
星期一的早上需要上课是多么的没趣。
今天，就是提不起劲，因为昨天的我，没睡好。

昨天是个漫长的夜晚，
脑海里一片一片本来似乎已经删除的记忆，
不知为什么的有再度地涌现出来。
人家常说：事出必有因

昨晚，室友他与朋友聊完，就有了一张蓝色的脸。
很忧郁的感觉。
没说什么，知道他不会想要表露出来。
感觉上似乎没什么，但，他应该很不好受。

看见室友那样子，
我知道自己不能做什么。
我想踏入他的世界，给予帮助，
但~~有如我所说的：人与人之间是需要双方面的。
显然的，他不肯让我知道，
那我只有在一旁等，象征性的陪一陪他。
折腾了他一整天的行程，似乎快要让他虚脱。
所以，有点不好意思，想等他睡了我才好意思睡。
其实也不知道他在另一张床上想着什么
或许我猜得没错，可能是关于那一番来自她朋友的话。

用了很熟练的掩饰技巧，他说，我没有什么，
过后又说，他不会让人看见他emo的，
倔强得跟我倒有几分相像。
明明人就没有表现出来的那么坚强，但就是打死也不说。
他还说，你好像开始了解我了，
哈哈，认真的那么容易被了解吗？
不知他有没有想过，
一定是亲身体验过，不然有真的那么容易了解某样事情吗？
虽然，情节可能不同，但是，过程应该不会差太远。

我知道人是需要时间与空间的
这样才不会容易窒息
他说过，静坐常思己过
每次看见他静静的反省着，
我就会想起那一段。

我总爱提醒大家我的生日
也间接的提醒了我
关于我们之间的回忆
没有争吵，没有不合，只有感慨，只有遗憾，
时机不对，遇到再对的人也只是一场空。
说好要走过每一次的生日
说好要努力地维持
一切说好的，还不如不曾说过的事实来得更实际

失去他的同时，音乐上的造诣竟不知不觉的提高了
老师说，是有了感觉，是找对了味道
老师的逝世，更把我的自信心从80楼拉到basement 10，
打击得我没有办法再踏进常去的redbox
直道遇见哈密瓜姐妹，
指导他们后，才找回唱歌的原动力
这一路走来，我就只有我自己
为什么？

朋友们都爱说我爱表现，怕没有被注视到的感觉
觉得我常被注视，是多么的好。
可是，又有几个人能了解在台上的感觉呢？
好象金字塔一样，越高的地方就越少站立的空间
我已经在高处，要站得直坐得正才行。
人家说，吊颈都要喘口气，
可是在‘被注视着’的这一个舞台，
一举一动都是引人注目的。
我很久没有呼吸了
很久没有喘气了
有时很想低调的过生活，
可是，正值花样时期的我，又要在高调时可得到的华丽与奢侈和低调才能换来的平静作取舍，谈何容易。
总之，矛盾就是了啦。

昨晚想了很多
听到了DJ说了一句话，
他说
我们将会在透明的直播室里做广播
不是在表演，
但是却不能否认有了表演的成分在。因为，在被别人注视的时候，一定会不自觉地加入表演的成分。
我的人生是这样的吗？
成绩，性格，行踪。。很多很多。。
我在表演我的人生？
那剧本呢？
写这篇是否是表演的一部分？
那我又会有多少的掌声？
是嘘声的话，要怎么办呢？

昨晚我独自站在阳台那儿，回来时
俊胤问：干嘛，讲电话吗？
我知说没有啦，没有啦。。。
我跟他谁可悲？？

2008-02-26T17:16:00.000+08:00

Start schooling yesterday,
it wasnt tht exhausted as today's class.
Gosh, i m very disappointed at the moment i got my schedule for my Process Analysis..
I need to do those field visit on MY BIRTHDAY which is actually the first day of my Mid-Sem break.
It's kinda ridiculous, but i still got to attend it.
I need to go either Yakult, Monash Air-Conditioning or Indah Water
to do some sort of case study la.
Luckily it just for a day la, but tht is torturing enuf le lor.

Tuesday classes are all totally tiring and exhausting,
It's not too bored though, but copied lotsa notes.
Therefore, need to revise them as soon as possible,
else, it will accumulate like a hill lor.. LOL..

I think i din made a wrong decision by choosing major in Chemical engineering la,
as the lecture for Proces Analysis kept me awake most of the time,
may be becasue due to the speed of the lecturer,
She is a chemical engineer and she is the coordinator for chemical engeering as well.
I wonder whether all those good in Chemistry can speak very fast, Eg: Ms Choo, and this lecturer called Miss Ooi..
She looks fierce but she isnt anyway,
haha.. She is kinda experienced and i think i need to score for this subject la

Well, nothin special to blog to anyway,
just EXHAUSTED after walking back from school..
Shud i say WALK? I actually spent 8 minutes ffor it whereas the rest need 15 mins.
I m sick, i mean running nose and can hardly smell anything.
I think i need to rest,
only after i revise everything
and tht will be probably quite late la..
Wish me good luck then

2008-02-23T12:06:00.000+08:00

MeiZi is leaving at midnight later.
Called her just now in the morning.
I think she feels so reluctant to actually leave to ShangHai for her attachment.
but it gonna be a short one, so don't worry, only half a year.
Not even half a year anyway.
I tried not to think how sad or how lonely i'll be if without her laughter and those sarcastic and hilarious conversation we usually have,
but my roommate is listening to 会有那么一天 by JJ lim.
I wasn't tht emo before this anyway.

I have faith to MeiZI that she will be able to takkaire of herself.
No matter how horrible the situation is , she will find a way for her to suit into the environment.
But she scared of loneliness most of the time.
And she scared of those Ghost thingy which is so unreal.
I suggested her to bring all her Buddha Statue there and put in the luggage bag.
Ha, of caz it just a joke la.
Just to make her more relax before going to ShangHai later.

She had a hard time a week before i think.
Something just went wrong on her and ppl around her.

SoOn, the flight will be flying off and
I m still at KL waiting for her message from ShangHai.
She used to be the most independent among BA GUA XIAN FENG,
and yet,
she is the first one to leave the country by herself.
I think she will be fearless,
as she knows when she got any emotional problem,
she can simply contact me or relyne and her frens
because we're all around her no matter where she is.

JIA YOU MEI ZI..

Do keep in touch with me frequently,
and takkaire of urself.
we'll meet around august or Sepetember la.
OKIE??

2008-02-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

had ended my orientation week on Wednesday~~
ha, have a long weekend this week.

Drove to AsiaCafe near Inti and Taylors at Subang.
Erm, no doubts, have great varities of food.
but the parking space is really limited.
But i always the lucky one to have one parking. Ha.
Had Vietnamese food - sweet and sour meehoon with pork chop.
Think shud take photo of it la, but i forgot
Caz i was so hungry as i skipped my lunch and had only half a cup of milo as breakfast in the morning around 8.30 i think.
Well, the dinner is kinda delicious and the most important of all - it's not as oily as other food i'd eaten at KL.
ha.. think i will always go there for dinner when i m free.
ha..

Went to the second floor to watch pool games.
junYin and Rachel were playing it.
Anyway, dont be surprise, Rachel almost win all the games
and it loses JunYin face.
wahaha..
But it was fun though to watch them playing.. Ha..

Pick PeiShi out from condo sunway,
to pyramid to grab some groceries..
went to play the dance machine and was so embarrassed..
ha.. It's kinda fun and sweat-ening.

Went to Halo cafe to listen to songs.
Ha..
JOKES happend there as USUAL.
when we settled down at Halo Cafe,
Jay Chou's 爸，我回来了 was on air.
When the waiter was patiently waiting us to order between me and rachel,
i did something stupid
I looked at Rachel with a very pathetic face, singing :
不要这样打我妈妈, means Don't beat my mum again.
The waiter cant tolerate and was laughing out loud.
Haha..
In the end, everyone laughed, and i was a bit paiseh.
There are three singers there. 2 girls and a guy.
Guy is also the guitarist.
he has nice voice and making us very comfortable while he was singing CHI BANG by JJ Lim. Girls have nice and powerful voice.
But one is slightly annoying but the other one is kinda basie... But the performance was nice.
and the environment made my dear roommate EMO again.
Aiks, i shudnt have bring him there..

Woke up early in the morning today and did all those house chores myself
went to have br-unch with rachel at her place.
She made porridge, it wasnt fantastic though, but not too bad. EATABLE LA~~~~~
ha..
Her fren, Ray called,
hang out to AsiaCafe again and had icekacang and pizza there.
Was insanely full but went to swim around 3pm.

Asked out by relatives,
to a new year gathering at my uncles place around kuchai lama.
Met lotsa relatives and uncle's frens.
Was so happy because they are all saying:
WOW U GOT THINNER LIAO WOR...
haiya, u all know la, i need those compliments to have more determination.
ha,
fire works is fantastic, too bad my handphone is a bit S*ck la.
haha.

tomolo going to REDBOX and might hang out to CHEE CHEONG KAI at night with JunYin.
Hee...

Tired d,
gonna stop blogging for a while.
may be wont be updating frequently.
Caz classes starting soon..

To Student ambassadors in Sunway College JayBee..
Dont ever take anything for granted.
Dont ever say NO to ur responsibilities.
Dont ever forget wad u shud do and make funny excuses anymore.

Success doesnt come to you if u never try to and keep on waiting for miracle.

2008-02-19T10:42:00.000+08:00

As you all know, i m here at KL since last friday.
After lotsa unpredictable changes, me finally got myself used to the environment.
Though it's kinda dry here.
Met old frens from JayBee, they are all different from the time we first met in JayBee.
This explains how environment changes ppl.

Yesterday went for orientation at Monash,
Somebody said that : You all must be working very hard to get in here, I think you all gonna work harder to get out from here.
This sounds so hilarious and sarcastic but indeed it's so damn true.
Was freaking bored while listening to the speeches.
Though their english slang is really very australia, but still, it made me nearly fall asleep.
Ha.

As expected, there are lotsa people attending the first day orientation.
They are 2 sessions, and i was in the afternoon session.
However, went there in the morning to drive my JunYin and Rachel there.
Can see the differences between the Business student and those Science student obviously.
ha,
One of them are so talkative and dare to make frens,
but the other batch is quite nerdy and not that outspoken.

JunYin hasnt got his offer letter yet,
he is requested to attend the orientation for a week i think.
he is damn so frust and uncertain now.
Somemore, he got emo easily.
Did i got influenced by him, erm.. I hope i didnt.
He got his own way of thinking, and it's pessimistic most of the time.
He told me that there is no good news for him for ages.
He even think that his life is getting worse.

Actually, i understand his feeling,
i remembered vividly how i suffer from this at the end of 2006.
That's the darkest moment in my life so far.
It just like the DARK ALLEY of Debbie from the musical i wrote last year.

Somebody left me behind
Family problems
Frens
Exams
Health
Financial problem
Uncertains
and the list goes on.

was so depressed last time,
for a long period,
at least 9 months or more i think,
but something just hit me and woke me up from those uncertainties.
And therefore i always believe in myself. and i think tht's the most important part to get rid of those depression.
Anyway, not saying JunYin is depress. Ha.

Seriously, i got more personal time and space while i m staying at KL.
Though there is no television program i like so far,
but i think i m more sensitive to the environment and know my roommate more.
Ha.

rushing out to help JunYin for his offer thingy.
Even mum also ask me to help him by looking for those marketing staff i knew.
Think he is good with my family now.
Ha..
or he can be more familiar to them if compared to me.
Ha.
I get used of his TURBO engine and he got used of my 'wad-ever charges'
Hope i managed to help him out and wish me good luck for it la.
But still, i believed tht,
we need to choose wad suit us the best, rather than choose the best among all..

2008-02-17T14:54:00.000+08:00

Finally I m settled down at KL.
Well, as wad i said in the last post,
my life is always full with unexpected thingy.
Ha.

Friday morning, we all happily driving to KL and hu knows in a sudden,
JunYin called and gave me the first bad news.
He cant get through to Monash directly due to his IELTS results.
But fortunately MONASH gave him a chance by asking him to attend the orientation activities.
At least he is still in the waiting list lor.
He is kinda panic right now i think,
those feeling is like abandoned,
He told me some of his problems and i can do nothing for him except try to give him some guidelines, which is not too useful for him i think.
But never mind la, as the old saying goes,
TIME HEALS OUR WOUNDS

No doubts, every teens will have this kind of experiences,
MeiZi too...
Read her bloggie, she said, she feels like dying.
I wonder what's going on her also.
Aiks..

The second thing went out of expectation is
My room
It's kinda small, but i think it's still okie.
But the level of dirtiness is really.. Aiks
We used a day ( in total) to clean the house.
I wonder HOW CLEAN my housemate will be.
They are so called KARANG GUNI for me,
they just keep wadever it is.
Regardless, it's useful or it's useless..

Third, JunYin again.
Well, i was kinda worry before we moved in as
-> i think we might get along well
--> the room is kinda small
---> the third reason : miss jade know la.
but i think, all the problems are not exists.
This is marvelous.
He is a nice person, and able to do those house chores.
Ha, i no need to do much.
In fact, i m the one not too tidy if compared to him.
Ha.
The next similarity i found between me and him is : we do have sensitive nose, and we are damn so sensitive to the dust and pet's hair.
Ha.
BUT HE SNORES..
How noisy will it be?
Err, u better experience it.
Oops..

Ha.
Suddenly, found tht it isnt easy to study at Monash,
and i think i'll be freaking busy these few years.
Wish all my new resolutions will come true la.

ANYWAY, he is there snoring beside me.
ha

2008-02-13T23:48:00.001+08:00

是的，快要去大学了。
真是有点期待，既有有点害怕。
不是害怕寂寞，不是害怕生活，也不是害怕成绩，是害怕我的担心会影响我的情绪。
人家说，一个人最大的敌人，非他本人莫属。
表面上的平静，其实并不能表现出我心里的那份不安。

很想赶快摆脱现在的无所事事，也不太想去面对未来四年的压力生活，
人还真是矛盾。
很多人都说，绍章有很多朋友，
但知心的就只有那一个。
其他的也越来越疏远。
而剩下来的那一个，也快要和我分道扬镳了。

快要是二十岁的人了。
人也成熟了不少，现在更能坦然地接受这些，不再像以前那样子。
未来的路要怎么走？任谁也无法预测。
套句妹子常说的，计划永远赶不上变化。
也不知道为什么，从小到大，身边所计划好的咚咚总爱在最后一秒由棘手的变化。
也在这种特殊的情况下，不知不觉地练就成了这个鬼主意总比别人多的我和妹子。

新事物，新景象，新作风，新朋友，新群体，新生活，新体验，新感受，新绍章。
害怕会失去原有的我，却又想早点见到自己的改变，
不知道新来的改变会给别人怎样的感觉？
哈，别再想了。

挥别了旧的生活，才能有新的视野。
挥别了旧的人，事，物，才能接受新的人，事，物。
看见未来了吗？
是时候要把已经坐麻的脚，伸直，拉拉筋，准备新来的旅程。
路是会愈走与平坦的。
我妈是这样教我的。

2008-02-08T22:19:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year

Yea, the most important festival for Chinese all around the world is finally here.
This year is the year of RAT.
Got lotsa wishes from frens thru SMS-es,
and thru CNY cards too.
That surprised me a lot caz not many people buying CNY cards anymore unless they are looking for votes for the next election. Oops..
Anyway, this chinese new year is kinda different for me.
I m not going back to my hometown,
this is the first time i spent my chinese new year here in JayBee.
It is kinda weird as my hometown are damn so crowded during chinese new year, but here? ermm..

New year eve
Went lotsa places for reunion dinner which is quite common anyway.Frens just inviting me, haha... Nothing special happened until i stepped into an old temple in the town. it's called ROU FO GU MIAO. It is kinda old and most of the Buddhists staying at JayBee know it. It's a historical landmark for JayBee too.
When i first stepped into the temple (which is around 11.35pm of the eve) , it's damn crowded. I saw some familiar faces there. But the most eye-catching thingy is, most of the lady inseide are all well dressed up. Some are very exaggerate, they wear gown and knee down to pray. I din stay for along time because it's getting more and more crowded.

First Day
Well, the first day of Chinese New Year is really fun and funny.
My bro with a super tiny shirt (for him) came down from the second floor, and with a moody face. May be he didnt have a nice sleep yesterday night,
The first call i received is from my singing pals.
They are all gathered at somebody's hometown at Kluang.
I cnt make it as i know no one in my family will allow me to follow them as my family dont know them well.(i m just too protected sometimes)
Ate quite a lot for breakfast and my Uncle came all the way down from Seremban to JayBee.
Uncle - the elder bro of my dad
Frankly, i dun really like those family member from my paternal side,
as they are a bit extraordinary. Hey, they are not extraodd in the same way of mine.
Ha. they are a bit weird and have very very unique lifestyle, which i cnt accept.

Second Day
They all went back to seremban in the morning.
Was realy bored and then try my luck to ask Jean out.
Who knows she said I M BORED TOO, LET'S HANG OUT
Ha, tht's great.
It's been a long time we all never meet.
Well, went to her house and try to figure out where should we go for the next few hours.
She might be damn so penniless, she suggested to go bai nian(visit to friends house) so that we can earn some money before doing any shopping or watching nay movie.
The first target is no one else except FION!! haha
caz her granny's hosue is not too far from Jean's place.
Well, we got 3 angpaos there then we decided to go for a chat at Jusco tebrau City.
When we arrived there, there was damn crowded. i think might because of the cool environment, the cool cinema and the FREE PARKING!!!
ha
We got nowhere to go then we shifted our chat place to KimGary in City Square.
The most unforgettable scene is definitely the waitress poured Jean's HORLICK ICE to a girl next to us accidentally.
Horlick is kinda sweet and i wonder how sticky the lady will be after her shirt tasted the Horlick Ice Jean ordered.
Well, sent them back home.
when i got back home, my dad asked me out for a movie. Haha
Yay, i cn watch CJ7 liao.
I cnt say CJ7 is a great movie, but stephen chow's movie is always funny
but this is a bit different,
It's kinda touching and it shows the greatest love of a father to a son.

The girl called Xu Jiao, act as Stephen's chow son.
Is quite talented in acting.
She might get nominated for some of the award ceremony.
But i wonder, she will be nominated in best actor or best actress leh?
she is a female, but she acts as a male.
Err..

2008-02-04T14:20:00.000+08:00

here i m, with great mood.
Today got up early in the morning, caz need to go pasar pagi with mum.
met bing kun there, was wondering whether he is the bing kun i knew,
caz u know? had been a long time i never get up so early, so a bit blur lor..
And there was a mild rain and the wind is totally freezing.
finally, after my mum finish shopping,
and when we were on our way to get the car, i heard a familiar voice shouting my name: SHAO ZHANG..
and wad appeared on my mind was :
WHO THE HELL SHOUTING MY NAME LOUDLY? MY FANS??
wahaha..
Yea, lotsa ppl always mumbling my name when they passing me thru.
caz i dunnoe them at all sometimes.. ~~(*hu ask me to be so famous)~~

Well, got my money from JunYin and can pay it back to mummy le.
She had been barking to me for days.
Ha, it's not JunYin problem anyway,
caz i was too lazy to go to the bank and get the money for her.
LAZY BUM~~

yesterday, was chatting with miss Jade,
suddenly she mentioned to me tht she met SEAN in her dentist's clinic.
I was quite shocked as i seemed to see SEAN when i was driving around sentosa either.
Finally, i got confirmed, tht was him.
ha.

Something funny happened to me AGAIN.
Yea, again.
Once upon a night, when it was damn cold, (yesterday night la)
me, the one who can seldom feel the coldness, was asked by papa to have supper,
as we ate dinner very early just now.
When i was at home, i was wearing a shorts and sleeveless shirt.
i tot we were just going out to dapao (take away) our supper,
then i just wear my slippers and hop into the car.
Who knows, everyone hopped into the car either at the next minute,
they were bringing me to a chinese restaurant,
though it wasnt air conditioned, but, the freezing breeze is quite strong,
and i were the one sitting face to the wind,
I cnt feel the cold anyway,
but the aunty at the restaurant might feel cold anyway,
she was so kind hearted to give me a warm water and ask me turn off the fan for me.
i ordered a mee soup and cold herbal tea.
when i ordered the drinks, her eye-balls are almost fall.
She asked me: really?
I replied firmly, YES
i was wondering why she was so shocked bout this.
but i din take it hard.
Soon, the next customer get into the restaurant,
she asked the aunty wad's nice for drink,
the aunty straight away recommend the herbal tea by saying this:
This herbal tea very good, u wont feel cold when u r drinking it, see tht didi wearing sleevless also never feel any cold caz he always drink it.
She was a bit too loud and i chocked when i heard that.

GOSH, when i became the ambassador for her herbal tea?
i was just a bit extraordinary as i dun feel cold easily.
there is nothing related to the herbal tea at all.
My mum was laughing all the way, and my pa got nothing to say..
Aiks, so i got my conclusion from the story,
i better ask others bout their feeling to the outdoor temperature,
else.. i will feel damn embarrassing when i m wearing beach suits while others are like living in winter.

2008-02-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

今天的心情，是复杂的。
迅速的情绪转变，让我觉得真得很累，很累。
很久很久没有这么样的情绪化。
也只有在我生命里有份量的人才能让我这么情绪化。

起得挺早的，一醒来就想到昨天晚上跟玉姐的对话，
或许如古人所说：日有所思，夜有所梦
被玉姐昨晚一番嘲笑后，还真的如他所料，梦见不想要梦见的人。
所以今天一早的精神是很糟糕的。
看见老妈子在菜市场回来，他大包小包的，买得比平时凶。
一回到家就忙着煲汤等等，猜想应该是老爸他们要回来了。
还故意问了他一下，真的，他们快回来了。
还挺开心的，很久没一家人坐在家里的餐桌吃饭了。

下午，去了银行一趟。
繁琐的手续让我很不耐烦。
一直都很不幸的排在那些不太会用机器的老伯后面。
那也就算了，
连机器都爱玩弄我不耐烦的个性，
总是不‘认’我想要汇的50块钱。
最后，他终于被我的‘巴掌’给征服，一掌打下去，终于，它‘认’了我的50块。
不约而同的，一上了车，老妈子和我就不停数落那个不认钱的机器。

下午，本来艳阳高照，却突然下起了细雨。
本来就不喜欢下雨的我，今天更因此心情变得蓝蓝的。
总觉得很不自在，睡也睡不着，也没有性子看戏。
本来想要唱歌的，可是楼上有两只因为凉爽的天气而睡得呼呼响的猪，所以也得作罢。
没有唱歌的下午，无所事事，时间虽然如往常一分一秒的过，
但是总觉得很漫长似的，一直下的细雨，给我带来了不祥的预兆。

不久，俊胤打来告诉了我一个坏消息。
其实，根本不出我所料，明天的考试才是他的关键。
只希望他能顺利过关，希望他有能力靠到他所要的等级。
除了给他出点子和从旁协助，我根本就不可能帮上什么。

晚上，跟妹子聊了一聊。
他说，23号就要飞了。
我说，15号我就走了。
我不能够送他的机。
一走虽然只有半年，但也够我担心她了。
虽然他嘴上总叫我不要担心，但是这始终无法避免。
还没找到栖身之所得他，还挺惨的。。。
几乎十年未曾缺席他的生日庆祝会，即使再忙，我们也会抽空出来见面。
以前，我偶尔还能到新加坡找他，
但现在？哈，别叫我飞去上海，如果我有钱又有闲，再说吧。
总之，就是要保重哦妹子。
记忆不断地涌现，
好像发生在昨天般，往事的回忆又回来了。
不知道我们的朋友现在过得怎么样了。

新年的脚步声越来越近，
也进入了倒数的阶段，
老妈更问我：eh, 进大学紧张吗？
毫无疑虑的，我回答得干脆又利落，不会啊，没有什么感觉咯。

我只希望我能顺利的读完，让我又继续唱歌的机会，让我能快乐的度过四年。
老妈说我的要求很低，其实我也不曾有很高的要求。
但是就不知道为什么简简单单的要求总会被误解为要求低。
也不知道为什么，别人总说我眼光高，
真的没有，徒弟们，我一直很欣慰，
要求你们是为了让你们进步。
就像老师鼓励我一样。
是的，我在情绪化是一定会想到她，
希望他好走。

2008-01-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

Ha, my car is finally back.
I can drive my car to wherever i want to go finally.
No need to worry bout anything now.
Haa..

Well, went to college this afternoon.
to get my result of LAN subject (Moral education and Malaysian Studies).
It's actually for me to get the exemption from Monash University.
I was expecting only a piece of paper..
But miss how passed me a huge A3 size envelope.
and telling me this : Pass this to Monash.
Was wondering what's so thick inside,
they are all certified LAN SUBJECTS syllabus and my result.
Haha..
Miss how gave me a very dull face and tell me:
they are so 'un-environmental-friendly',
because, whoever from our college is going to study there, need this,
we need to photocopy a set for each one of you....
Haa..

Saw JY this afternoon.
Frankly, i do not notice his face every time i'm meeting him.
Me today is not very energetic and may be due to the medicine i eaten.
I din recognize him till the time he waved to me.
maybe he cut his hair? did he anyway??
haha

When i saw JY, he will remind me of two other frens.
JiaJiunn and Roger.
Caz JY sounded exactly like JiaJiunn,
the way they speak, they walk, their words, their slang, and just wadever.
For Roger, haha..
better dun mention here anymore..

Well, went back home to do the lantern my mom brought last night.
Some particles of it were missing anyway,
by the time i almost finish fixing it,
mum is back.
She said: John ah, go get the dog from the boot of the car.
I was so shocked, A DOG???
She said, she bought it for RM180, and it's very nice.
Has very nice fur..
Surprisingly, when i see it,
it's only a STATUE..
Mum said: GOT CHA...
walao..

At night, my mum complaining to me tht she is so sick..
But she wants to get the missing particles from the shop in kerry's
i brought her there, she was seriously ill.
She cant even walk a little bit faster.
Finally we reached there,
the girl was a bit impatient because my mum is talking quite softly and quite slowly.
She then accused us tht we actually throw the particles accidentally.
My mum suddenly raise up her voice and give the girl a shocked,
and she scolded her for 5 mins i think, continuously
the girl is so afraid,
and my mum recovered since then...
-__________________________________________________________-ll

she is always powerful....
haha..

2008-01-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

Today is the worst day of me in 2008.
I never got so angry bout my mum.
It's such a long story.
But i just couldnt tolerate her anymore.

I din quarrelled with her at all.
But i just do my things with smiles but didnt talk to her for a day,
she knew i was angry as i din speak a word for a day though i din show my black face.
When i got angry, i seldom speak.
i dun even nod my head when she talk to me.
I just do whatever she wants.

I feel reluctant to go up KL these few days,
afraid of leaving her alone at JB,
but today,
she made me feel like flying to KL immediately,
leaving her alone here for years.

I'm bad, u can always say tht,
but i just cant get stand it.

MeiZi, sorry for cant make it for today,
though Ji wanted to see u badly as well,
will be almost 9 months we all cant meet up,
Aiks..

TeckKian,
hee, so paiseh also,
next time only celebrate a belated birthday with u bah..

Still angry-ing.....

Face turned red, feel hot and just cnt calm down for almost 10 hours.....

2008-01-24T23:54:00.000+08:00

Today is such a busy day for me.
Morning get up damn early, was woken up by a nightmare.
it's not about Roger anymore.
It's bout a real demon running after me and finally i got caught. But in the end, It was just asking me the direction of some place. It's damn so stupid.
Gosh, give me a break please.. No more such nonsense appear in my dreams okie?
I rather to have no dreams at night.

Tired, but still bored at home.
Mama went to fren's house and i was left alone at home.
Drove to college, and met Jade.
Only a while we met, got JunYin's call.

He met some problems to get himself into Monash University.
He is somebody who is not really familiar with those requirements maybe, he called me while he is in trouble.
Ha, Fortunately, after phoning to KL MONASH, ME, IDP (JB branch and KL branch), he got himself a chance to get the offer by hand in certain certificate.
JunYin tong xue, u must be damn frustrating ba? Ha..
I seriously think tht this is a great chance for u to know how important to double check, especially those things which is concerning ur future.
Phew....

Met TeckKian in the campus too.
His birthday is coming soon.
26th of January. His 21st birthday anyway.
We'll be hanging out on tht day, but i asked MeiZi out since few weeks before.
I m in dilemma now.. Aiks..
Where to go?
If both appointment can make it on the same day and at the same time, will be GREAT~~
ha..

Well, my puppy bought fish back home.
two huge fish.
let u see the fish. It's called 'ma-you-yu'

See, this is kinda big.
And my mama is having headache, need to figure out how to put it into the fridge.
Ha..

K la, i got myself late to online and missed my chance to have discussion with some of my frens regarding to some outing plan.
AIKS...

2008-01-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

一年前的大宝森，你离开了我们。
就因为一场车祸。
绍章，你儿子，很乖。会说话了哦。
绍章，您徒弟，我，也很乖，快上大学了。
我们都没有辜负你的期望，一直对唱歌抱着美丽的梦想。
很久没有见你了，真的还没有习惯下来。
每每听到你第一首教会我的歌，我就会哭。
今天，我一个人在楼上唱着这首歌 -- 我难过。

天堂美吗? 不管你在哪里，我们都希望你能够安详。
至于绍章嘛，阿嬷照顾得他很好。
他会叫我 gor gor 了咧。
也很奇怪。
绍章叫绍章 gor gor??
哈哈。。

好啦，就这样吧。
告诉你个好消息。
我有两个比较亲密的徒弟了。
他们在我主办的活动里表演。
表现不赖。
虽然没有我酱好啦。哈哈。
但心满意足，意足就快乐。
哈哈。。。

我们会把小绍章看到大，不让他被人笑扁。
会教他唱歌，跳舞。
教他读书，学字。
比我还更出色。
哈。